give OM another chance???
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| Fri, 10-17-2003 - 12:22pm |
First, just a little recap. I have been into this LDEMA for about a couple of months. It started out as flirting then the first kiss. We're both M and live far away from each other. The LDEMA started just when my family and I were moving out. Anyways, we've been emailing and talking to each other on the phone. We're mainly like bestfriends cause we run to each other when we have problems and we've never had phone sex. As far as physical contact, just kissing. Mainly, it's emotional (or maybe just on my part).
Anyhow, we've been telling each other that we L each other. Just a couple of days ago though, he admitted to me (through email) that he thought we were just playing around the first month. He said that all he wanted was just one kiss from a girl like me cause he's had this crush on me way before. He said that he has now fallen for me. He was just playing around with me the first month. The thing was that I reminded him at that time that we have been into this LDEMA for a month so it would be a month anniversary. At first he didn't take it seriously and he totally forgot. I got mad at first but got over it. When he admitted this to me the other day, he said that the day I got mad (the supposed "one month anniversary"), that's when he realized that he really does love me.
On our second month, he was the first one to send an e-card and I even totally forgot about that day. Well, everything was pretty much going well until he admitted the sad truth a couple days ago. He doesn't want me to leave this LDEMA and I don't want to either. But if I stay, I would always wonder if he really loves me. If I leave, it will hurt me so so so much. He's a part of my life now.
What do you think? Please give me your input. Should I believe that he does love me for real now? I don't wanna leave but I don't wanna be played for a fool and I don't wanna be taken for granted. I do love and care for him. I'm just really really confused. As of right now, I don't know how he really feels for me. I guess I'm still in doubt since the wound is still fresh. But one thing's for sure, I still love him.

we had an all out blown fight a few weeks ago, i started it cause his messages were all about the weather, and not really i miss yous anymore, so we talked and he said he didn't want to loose me, and i know that i dont want to loose him. i feel we are so connected now, and we too live far away, abotu a 3hr flight away actually, but i think you should stick it out and just enjoy the conversations and any time you get with him.
stay until it hurts more than it gives you love. thats what i've been advised and really believe. i love my H very much, i have no kids, but OM has 2 little ones.. right now we are just friends, and i try not to let myslef get too worried if he doesn't write or call.. i did that the first few weeks, and he noticed cause i was really wack-o and it scared him. made us both have to re-evaluate if we want to go on.. everytime we decided to .. good luck