Going Crazy here!!! HELP

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Registered: 09-09-2009
Going Crazy here!!! HELP
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Wed, 09-23-2009 - 9:20pm
I know AP is traveling and I know last night his W was with him on travel. Not sure if she is going to the second location with him...seriously doubt it because of the kids, but I have not gotten to talk to him at all since Monday night. He emailed me something random today with very little verbage and a photo of an incredible view last night, but have not heard from him. I know he's traveling and this is most likely the only reason. He did make a point to call me Monday night late before he flew out and we talked about business for about 30 minutes. I don't know why, but I am really missing him right now. Weird thing about this whole thing is that we don't see each other that much as he lives 3 hours away from me and most of our conversations are about business, but not having just that little bit of conversation with him is making me crazy! I know I have to be patient, heck, I don't even know that we are in a full blown A. Although, responses to my other posts would make me assume that a full blown A is his intention. This really makes me want to keep a strictly platonic relationship with him. Is that even possible? Sometimes I randomly get really sad that we can't be together and then I get really sad at the thought of a Dday. Have you experienced any of this??
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Registered: 07-09-2008
Thu, 09-24-2009 - 12:12am

Gal,


Wow... you need to take it slow girl! lol


You say you're not even sure if you're in an affair and when you communicate, the two of you talk business.

 

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Registered: 09-09-2009
Thu, 09-24-2009 - 2:38am

I understand why you might say that from that one post, however, if you read the previous posts, We have been colleagues for 5 years and have worked closely together now for 3 years. Obviously, we are working closer together then ever before now. The business talk has to stay in the conversation b/c it was there before. However, the new talk is definitely more personal and flirty. I do have a conscious about this whole thing. However, I am very mixed about how I feel on whether to continue or not. In my previous post several wrote back saying that from the sounds of it, he sounds like he is putting the A into full force. He of course, did call me tonight as soon as he landed, so I am feeling much better :). To me it almost seems (because he is a bit of a workaholic) that he is attracted to me because I am very business focused and we can have stimulating conversations on economics, wealth, politics and even sports, but his W however is not on the same wavelength of conversation and this is why I feel he is not happy (one of the reasons) in their M. We have grown close in our friendship before anything physical ever happened. We don't live close together so we don't see each other much and we also travel a lot for business. I'm not sure whether I should allow this to continue or not...it feels so right, but yet so wrong. To update you, our last conversation we discussed being more careful, so it was definitely left open to "go there" again.