Grrrrrr... I DID it again
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Grrrrrr... I DID it again
| Wed, 09-03-2003 - 9:44am |
I havent quite lived up to all my resolve to not get sucked back in by the not-so-SG... he was online this AM .. he IM'd me first and my heart just did the "happy dance"...once again we chatted and exchanged pleasantries and then I excused myself from the conversation...
I guess I should be writing this on the Ending board huh? It is hard... I guess I dont want it to be ending - but I know it is the best thing...
Just had to vent a little this AM
Chloe

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I don't know. Maybe? But the bottom line is he isn't talking to me about how he feels. I am torn ...between wanting to wait it out... and wanting to KNOW either way.
Since we are not close by - there really isnt any way to know for sure. Which has been one of the difficulties of this relationship to begin with - I am too far away. It is a major undertaking to get time to chat on the phone or online for that matter - so all that silence just builds up and maybe I over react and maybe he thinks I am not interested.
I don't know how to figure it out - other than to just get myself straightened out - and move on with my life. He has my phone numbers, addresses etc. and he knows how to get ahold of me. I have no idea how I would react if he did call me on the phone. :(
Chloe