Grrrrrr... I DID it again

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Registered: 07-21-2003
Grrrrrr... I DID it again
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Wed, 09-03-2003 - 9:44am
I havent quite lived up to all my resolve to not get sucked back in by the not-so-SG... he was online this AM .. he IM'd me first and my heart just did the "happy dance"...once again we chatted and exchanged pleasantries and then I excused myself from the conversation...

I guess I should be writing this on the Ending board huh? It is hard... I guess I dont want it to be ending - but I know it is the best thing...

Just had to vent a little this AM

Chloe

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Registered: 07-20-2003
Wed, 09-03-2003 - 9:50am
Chloe, I've been following your posts for a while...do you think he's just 'scared'? I mean, since you weren't ready to be with him the first time, maybe that's why he's not 'ready' to leave his gf right now? I'm just wondering, I've thought this several times when I read you posts. It just seems like that may be his problem right now, do you think?

PR

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Registered: 07-21-2003
Wed, 09-03-2003 - 2:08pm


I don't know. Maybe? But the bottom line is he isn't talking to me about how he feels. I am torn ...between wanting to wait it out... and wanting to KNOW either way.

Since we are not close by - there really isnt any way to know for sure. Which has been one of the difficulties of this relationship to begin with - I am too far away. It is a major undertaking to get time to chat on the phone or online for that matter - so all that silence just builds up and maybe I over react and maybe he thinks I am not interested.

I don't know how to figure it out - other than to just get myself straightened out - and move on with my life. He has my phone numbers, addresses etc. and he knows how to get ahold of me. I have no idea how I would react if he did call me on the phone. :(

Chloe