H repulses me.......do i tell AP?????
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| Mon, 09-15-2008 - 5:05pm |
been with ap for a year now, and although for the present neither of us wants to leave our partners we do beleive that we are in love with each other. My ap is adorable, he keeps contact all the time, we see each other about once a week (although he is now asking to see me more), he makes me feel so alive, makes me feel like he adores the ground i walk on, makes me feel valued as a person as well as a lover and friend.
My dilemma is this i have lately been feeling repulsed when ive slept with h, although this doesnt happen very often lately i find that when i do i hate it (but like many i do it to not raise suspicions). Well its been causing me to distant myself from ap a little, i think its because i need to think of how to handle this situation as a little guilt fo feeling this way towards my H is creeping in, as my feelings for my ap are stronger. My H generally treats me well although he has his moments but i just cringe at the thought of him kissing me let alone of sleeping with me.

I feel the same way about my H.
Wow - this is complicated.
edited for privacy
Edited 10/22/2008 9:06 am ET by goddess_edwina
thankyou all for your replies, yes maybe i shall tell him. For some reason i cant put my finger on im just a little bit cautious of it, maybe because im scared of showing him just how much he does mean to me by telling him this, if that makes sense..........oh dear well first i guess im going to have to start being nice to him and not as distant, i do feel bad about that and not done this before.
Im just tired tonight and dont seem to be making much sense to myself never mind anyone else. ok well off to bed i suppose and tomorrow is another day, thanks again for all of your advice
SS x
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