Happiness in short supply?
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| Thu, 09-10-2009 - 4:54pm |
Hi everyone,
Is it my imagination or is there a lot of unhappiness going around here lately? I realize it's the nature of the beast, up one day..down the next, and back again! I really wish it was different because it hurts my heart to see so many of us in pain, so much of the time.
So...this is why I'm posting. Yes, AP/BF and I have made up after our last fight. I think I've finally got it through my head that I need to live for myself...yes, I can enjoy my time with him, but I also need to be able to enjoy my time without him. It's easier said than done on most days, but at least I've said it out loud to myself...and I know that it's true.
To that end...I have signed up for a pilates boot camp class and tonight is my first night! I am super excited about it...not only will I be doing something really good for myself, but I'm going to be meeting a whole bunch of new people that I normally would not meet. The instructor has told me that even a few men have signed up for this (not that I'm looking) but I think to myself that I'm probably going to be in the R with my AP/BF for a while...and eventually we will part ways. So, even though I will probably be much older, at least my bod will be rockin' and I could conceivably find someone else to love (preferably someone single!). I have also not been drunk for at least two weeks and that feels really good too. Sure, I might have a setback here or there, but for now I am GOOD...and what a wonderful feeling.
Please take care of yourselves ladies, we women are wonderful and amazing people....we need to remember that more often.
benska
