Has it every worked for anybody here???

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Registered: 07-20-2003
Has it every worked for anybody here???
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Tue, 07-22-2003 - 6:35pm
My guy just left me after two wonderful days together to return home. In another state, with his W and im sitting here wondering........has waiting every proved to be worth it to any of you? After three years of this......I am just getting so tired of saying goodbye. It doesnt hurt as much now as it used to, but trust me......it still fricken hurts!

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Registered: 07-05-2003
Tue, 07-22-2003 - 7:13pm
hthremly,

It doesn't get any better as long as you're in this EMA, but try to focus ont he 2 days and how wonderful it was. think positive and look forward to the next time.

How great that you got 2 days with him.! Who knows when I'll see my MM again, and he just told me he's going on vacation next week! GRRR....

=)

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Registered: 07-20-2003
Tue, 07-22-2003 - 7:42pm
Well it just isnt enough for me. I ended my marriage, 2 years later, im still saying goodbye. At times like these, I feel cheap. I think and often wonder....dont I deserve more than this?
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Tue, 07-22-2003 - 7:48pm
Yes you deserve more!!!!

that is for sure, especially if that's what you want, you just might not get more with your MM. ya know.? It's all up to you and the choices you make in your EMA, if this isn't enough for you, then it's definatly not worth it! right.

Just make sure you think before you speak and don't jump to something that you don't know if you're a 100% sure you can deal with. If this feeling comes and goes from time to time that's normal, you can have whatever you want and do whatever you want to do, you're an adult. =)

hugs

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Registered: 06-17-2003
Tue, 07-22-2003 - 7:48pm
It hurts to part ways, even OM is not going back to anyone. My OM and I just spent 5 days together in Europe and it was better than I had ever hoped it could be. Unplanned, no expectations, absolutely wonderful. I have been left virtually speechless... I miss him terribly and am having a difficult time being with H.

This all seems to get worse as we get closer; it is never easier.

Pug

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Tue, 07-22-2003 - 8:02pm
ok you guys and your over nighters with your OM. I'm so jealous!

But i'm happy for u guys!!!!!!!

its hard to leave even when I spend only an hour with my MM. I couldn't imagine and over nighter!

=) hugs

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Registered: 06-17-2003
Tue, 07-22-2003 - 8:06pm
Believe me when I tell you that you don't get ANY sleep.... Pug
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Tue, 07-22-2003 - 8:10pm
ROFL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Tue, 07-22-2003 - 8:16pm
I agree lexy, I'm so jealous too! You girls should consider yourselfs lucky for an over-nighter of any kind...lol. I wouldn't know what to do....oh wouldn't I?
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Tue, 07-22-2003 - 8:48pm
Well I guess in that aspect I am. But with him being 300 miles away, I am jealous of you all who get a day a week. A lunch here or there. I only get to see my MM about once a month when he can arrange for business to take him away. Or if I play a weekend in his town and pay for the expenses of a hotel, etc! I used to be in your shoes and saw mine DAILY, but now we live for AIM and the phone and take the overnighters or weekends. But ladies and gentlemen if your out there too, after all these years, after hearing over and over again how much he loves me and the he continues to return home to his wife, is making me sick. At least it sounds like most of you still have a husband or wife of your own at home to help pass the time. Now I realize that you say its terrible or that you have no romance, and that all may be true. But one thing you have that I dont, someone to help fill the pain of not being with you MM. I am alone! I sleep alone. I eat alone. I dream of what may never happen. Love plays a very strong role here as I know how much he loves me and my heart wont let me forget how much I love him. But I will tell you this.......no overnight in the world can make up for the pain I live with day in and day out that im not with him. I am probably sounding quite negative today, but keep in mind he just left 2 hours ago and the memories of what we shared over the past 26 hours is only a constant rock in my gut to who he will be sharing his bed with tonight.
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Tue, 07-22-2003 - 8:55pm
I can only try to understand what you are saying, because like you said I do have my H to occupy my time when I can't see or talk to him. On the days that I don't get to talk to my MM, they seem to last FOREVER and I can't wait for tomorrow. Anything to fill in the time helps, I couldn't imagine being alone with my thoughts all the time. Sometimes though I go to bed early just so I can lay in bed and think about him with nothing else going on around me (I know that's nuts) Bless your heart..at least you do have sweet memories of the 2 days and always remember that he's probably thinking just as hard about them as you..this helps me sometimes!!

{{Hugs}}

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