Hate going to work

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Registered: 12-24-2008
Hate going to work
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Mon, 04-27-2009 - 6:09am
Had a good weekend, despite having MM on my mind....now I just hate having to go to work today and actually see him. Part of me wants to choke him and part of me wants to hug and kiss him. Oh, well, 2 weeks going on 3 NC for me.

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Registered: 12-24-2008
Thu, 04-30-2009 - 6:20pm
Hi, Raingirl....thanks. Oh, he's told me that before too, how it hurt him to see me and not talk to me everyday....we've been back and forth with this "relationship" for a year and a half now. The longest we've been NC was 3 months and he's the one who broke it. He would tell me that even though it looked like he wasn't looking at me, he was out of the corner of his eye and how I didn't realize how many places there are where he could see me and I couldn't see him....he's the one who avoids me because he can't face me after running back to his wife and leaving me hang but then after he's been back with her for a few weeks/months, he's missing me, still loves me and can't get me out of his mind...but, whatever...if he really wanted to be with me, we'd be together...bottom line. I don't need these games. He knows how I turned my life upside down and risked everything to be with him when HE wanted us to be together because he was SO in love with me and couldn't live without me and then when he couldn't handle the guilt trips from his wife and the reality of his financial situation, he'd bail on me everytime.

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