Hating myself today! A new low for me.
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Hating myself today! A new low for me.
| Wed, 09-02-2009 - 7:46pm |
I'm pretty new to this board. This is my first A with a MM and my first experience as an OW. Saw MM last night; he snuck me into his house about 11:30 p.m. and I stayed with him until about 1:30 a.m. We ended up having sex in his basement guest bedroom while his wife and daughter were asleep upstairs.

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A man's perspective huh?
Rolling,
You stated, "I guess I switched over from being a bad boy to a good boy and it bit me in the a$$."
WRONG! Being nice didn't bite you in the ass, sorry, but KARMA bit you in the ass! Remember, what goes around comes around, and this is why I am affraid of what I am doing will some day come and bite me in the ass.
Being a nice guy doesn't mean you get screwed in the end.
I'm sorry that she cheated on you but do you think getting even with her is the best option?
My heart wants to forgive her because she seems so sincere in her regretfulness and remorsefulness and she blames the whole ordeal on being put on a ADD medication that altered her personality and caused her to be depressed and suffer from low self esteem but I have to be honest when I say that my BS alarm goes off everytime I hear her say that.
My pride wants her to smell and taste the scent of another woman on me so that she will feel the pain that I have. If the outcome is that we do not make it then so be it. That will be my answer of whether or not I should have given her a second chance if she is not willing to give me one. I will not feel bad for having an affair, trust me. I love the nervous excitement of being with another woman and was willing to give that up forever until she did this.... Now I feel like I have a free pass to indulge in a drug that wakes up all of my senses and makes me feel alive again.
Life,
I know where you're coming from... trust me... its' been an uphill battle for me these past year an half... sort of given up hope on men, marriage, family, children, etc...
But I read somewhere that to find happiness you need to let go of the resentment.
I think I read somewhere that every time a man enters your body he takes a portion of your soul with him. It's true, you know. You really are not hurting the happily M women
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