Haven't posted in a while.First loves?
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| Tue, 09-30-2008 - 9:33pm |
Hello all. Been gone for a while. Sometimes I need a break from the board as I get too caught up in over analyzing everything and getting into a phase where I want more than I can have. I go away for a while, gain some perspective and I am better and in a better position to offer some insight.
It's been 2 full years. I am starting into the 3rd year. Never thought it would last this long. I thought it was over this summer but it's not. That was me freaking out as usual.
Anyhow, I felt the need to post this song for all the first love A's and old flame A's. It has completely struck a cord with me and I can't stop listening to it. I sent it to AP and told him it is all about us. I will break it down for ya after you read the lyrics.
Gavin Rossdale , Love Remains the same
1000 times I've seen you standing
Gravity like lunar landing
You make me wanna run till I find you
I shut the world away from here
I drift to you, you're all I hear
As everything we know fades to black
Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But, love remains the same
I find a place where we escape
Take you with me for the space
The city buzz sounds just like a fridge
I walk the streets through 7 bars
I have to find just where you are
The faces seem to blur
They're all the same
Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
But love remains the same
So much more to say
So much to be done
Don't you trick me out
We shall overcome
It's all left still to play
We - we could have had the sun
Could have been inside
Instead we're over here
Half the time the world is ending
Truth is I am done pretending
Too much time too long defending
You and I are done pretending
I never thought that I
Had anymore to give
You're pushing me so far
Here I am without you
Drink to all that we have lost
Mistakes we have made
Everything will change
Everything will change
I, oh I,
I wish this could last forever
I, oh I,
As if this could last forever
Love remains the same
Love remains the same
Ok, so he broke my heart years ago and I never thought it would mend. He has mended it. It still has a teeny tiny scar, but it's far better than it ever was. So that is the first line of the chorus. You're pushing me so far.....not away from him but pushing me to be a better person. Here I am without you.....yea, we are about 150 miles apart. "Drink to all that we have lost, mistakes we have made" We always get together for drinks, me sometimes do the coulda shoulda woulda thing, but mostly we know and just don't bring it up anymore. We realize the situation we are in is not one that will change.
Running to each other.....finding a place to escape together...... we are done pretending......we could have had the sun....but we only meet in the dark of nights. And finally, love has remained the same for the past 16 years. He was my first love. We lost touch for a few years and now here we are drifting towards each other continuously.
Can anyone else relate to this?

Yes, I can relate.
This song didn't have anything to do with a first love - but it was one that I gave to AP/BF when he was deciding what to do.
And once he did leave the M - it was the last verse that he returned to me - because it now applied.
Thanks for the memory -
Hugs - Tgr