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|Thu, 04-24-2014 - 5:54pm|
Hello, I really need to talk about how I'm feeling and grateful for this board. I have been involved with my AP for 5 1/2 yrs. We see each other at minimum once a week and if he cannot see me he calls to say so. Not the case of late. It has been 2 weeks since I have seen or talked to him. No show last Wed, no show last night. No calls, nothing. Let me say he does not own a cell phone and yes he does have a computer but we never email each other as a safety measure. I have no clue why he would disappear, as he has NEVER done this in the 5 1/2 yr span. I feel so low. Im upset that he hasn't reached out and if he wanted out I had hoped after all this time he would have talked to me about it. I know ppl can be cowards but you never think this is going to happen to you. It's cruel. I cannot call him for obvious reasons nor would I. So he's got all the control as he always has and Ive come to accept that. Of course I want to know why, is he ok, did something happen, are you sick, etc? I feel that he's ok with no contact or I would have heard something by now. He does call me occasionally at work or on my cell but its sporadic. We usually just see each other and at the end of the night he always says, see you next week. I feel like I am not even worth a breakup if that's what this is and naturally I want answers. Then the intelligent side of me says, maybe you have your answer, no calls, no contact, he's done and he's ok with it. But not knowing for sure is the hardest part. then i fast forward to what if he calls me or just shows up after the disappearing act? How will I react, what should I say, all that crap starts playing out in my head. I am deeply hurt by his behavior and feel disregarded. Has anyone's AP ever disappeared on you and if so how did you handle it? Open for advice, comfort and not a scolding. Thank you.