Hell week and a HALF...
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| Sun, 02-29-2004 - 2:59am |
I met my MM through an adult dating site...very unexpected...
He never presented himself as anything other than what he was...and what started out as being friends escalated...
We've gotten very tight, he really doesn't know what hit him...emotionally, and yes, sexually...
So, a week ago Tuesday, he comes to town...we go out for a nice romantic dinner for my Valentines...get back to my house, listen to the new Norah he just bought me...and have fun...cuddle up in bed, and an hour later I get violently sick...send him off to his hotel, telling him I'll be all right, not wanting HIM to get sick...
Well, I was sick for a week...LOL...
I was feeling whiny about not hearing that much from him, send him an email that ok, I think he needs space, and let it be...and don't reply to the 3 he sends me right away...
Finally I feel better, then have a hell test...and pms...and a poor me day, and I am ready to shoot him...
He gets on me on an IM that night, very apologetic, and we talk...
One of the things that had been bothering me was how we met...and that his profile was still was on that damn site...and I was really irritated by that...more by that than by the time he spent with his wife...
I felt that he didn't have time to send me an email but he had time to check THAT?
Earlier that day, I'd taken my profile off it...and mentioned that to him...he told me that he'd taken HIS off earlier that week...that he wanted to spend more time concentrating on ME...
Ok all, say awwwwwwwwwww...
Anyway, that was probably the best news I'd had all week...
Plus we had fun on cam...
=)
Friday, he tells me he's going to be down here for the weekend visiting his parents...with the wife...and getting together with his kids that are here too...and that he'll miss me...
This morning...the phone rings...
=)
Hi honey, wife is at her seminar, had to call you...
THEN...find out that in his talking to me so long on Wednesday because of the funk I'd been in...he almost got busted...he turned the monitor off quick...and threw the cam under the desk...LOL...and I was still beeping him on IM's...but the scary thing is...that if she had walked down those steps 5 minutes earlier...he was so involved in what we were doing that he wouldn't have heard her...
Now...am I really bad in kinda WANTING him to get busted?
Then I wonder what would happen if he was...and where he and I would be if he did...
But I want him to be happy...and maybe if she had the rude awakening that he was doing this, maybe she'd forgive him and strenghthen their marriage...
Too much analyzing...I'm going to bed...
Sorry this was so long for those of tou that slogged through it...
Laurie

But I'd be willing to bet that if he WERE busted your relationship would be history. Be careful what you wish for...and if you are going to analyze, do it carefully and realistically.
I guess it all depends on what her reaction is when it happens...
I won't do anything to hasten that, but I feel it's just a matter of time...
Her decision whether she wants to stay with him at that point will be a tough one...
Unfortunately, he's the one that will be hurt the most in the long run...
I won't be devastated if it happens, yes, it wil hurt, but I went into it with my eyes wide open...
Thanks so much for the input!
~Laurie~