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| Fri, 12-12-2003 - 2:25am |
I've been keeping this to myself for so long i feel like i'm about to explode so here goes:
I'm 23 years old and have been going out with my boyfriend (who's 10 years older than me) for 2 years or so. It's been a good 2 years but it's certainly not been exciting simply because he's not the exciting type, he's very mild tempered and settled. I myself had never been a party girl crazy type and therefore find great comfort with a boyfriend like him, or so i thought.
Recently, I've gotten pretty close to a male colleague of mine (as it is, my boyfriend also works in the same company only in different departments) and though we're really worlds apart, we click. Although i know he's got a girlfriend, i can't stop thinking about him. When i found out he's equally attracted to me, i couldn't control myself and kissed him. I know things could never work out between the two of us and indeed, i am not prepared to sacrifice my boyfriend, i decided to embark on an affair with him.
God, i know what i'm doing is bad but i can't help it and with the two of them both working in the same company, i'm really skating on thin ice but i just can't STOP!!!

thanks for your reply. i really appreciate it. yes, you're right, i am worried about the affair jeopardizing my job but i'm at this stage where i'm completely addicted to this other guy. i don't know if the fact that it's forbidden even comes into my affection for this guy. i just can not control myself. that having been said though, i have no intentions of leaving my current bf for him. i know that in the end, things are not going to work out between the two of us, yet, at this very moment, i just could not help it. despite all our differences, i do so love him. i know i'm in dangerous territory and indeed what i'm doing is so, so wrong but you know how sometimes, it just can't be helped?
and to answer your question, i was brought up in a fairly happy and complete family, although i suspect that my sister being my dad's pet has something to do with my wanting attention and affection from men.