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| Mon, 01-18-2010 - 9:25am |
A few weeks ago I posted about me and my best friend of 20 years spending the night together. He told me he loved me and wanted to be with me, that I was laways the one. He of course is M, I am not I just got out of a long term R. Anyway since that week at Xmas, we have talked like always and there are hints of what is going on in our conversations. Well, this weekend I went to meet him in a town about 3 hours from me and where he lives. he lives about 4 hours from me. Anyway, we have a friend that lives where we were going that knows what is happening. Needles to say we had a great time, and I hated going back yesterday. When things first happened between us I was weirded out. But now it seems so natural, it was not akward the next day.

Welcome Back Cubbies,
I'm of course under a different screen name since my D-Day 2 years ago, but I remember you being the CL and I always loved getting your input. My old screen name was blueeyes03. I'm
Hi Cubbie,
I'm sure you know this, but you are not responsible for his decisions.
Well Cubbies I'm wishing you lots of luck and I hope it turns out for the best. I can understand him saying he needs a little time to get things lined up. It's not an easy decision nor is it a quick fix to end a marriage. But like you said, which I agree more than ever you aren't going to be his side dish while he has you both. Emotionally you don't need that and you don't need to stress about a d day. I would just take things slow these next 6 months and let him get his ducks in a row. I know it's tough on you though to sit back and wait. Just be super careful, which you already know.
I'll be thinking about you.
OMG Cubbies!
B True!!!!! Hey girl. Yeah I know the drill all to well. :) I have been re-thinking my decision to do this. It is a LD thing about a 4 hour difference so getting together is hard, through out our friendship we still hung out at least once a month as friends. We mainly talk on the phone. Last week we were talking and he was telling me that he wished he could be here on V day but if he is really going to do what he has to he can't be gone from the W on V day. He is trying to get things together to split so it hurts him the least finacially as he is the main bread winner. After a lot of thinking and discussion with my friends I dont think I can have this A. If he wants to leave his M, and try with me then he needs to do it. I guess this should be posted in the on the fence section. But regardless I have been through way too much to put my life on hold any longer for 1 month or 6 for this. I love him I really do but I can't do this. It just is not the right thing to do. If we are meant to be then we can wait until he does the right thing and ends his marriage.
All that being said we all know that when he arranges for us to get together again I will go and it will all be out the window. LMFAO Seriosuly I am going to try and not fall back into it. I cannot take back what has already happened but I can not do it again.