his silence is driving me mad
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| Mon, 07-19-2010 - 4:54pm |
Hi all,
Although I think I have accepted the A is over and I am trying really hard to move on with my life I just can't seem to get the thoughts of him ignoring me out of my head.
I am trying so hard even though it hurts but I just can't believe he would just forget about me so easy and not even be bothered to reply. I know that I shouldn't expect anything from him as after all this is an A, but when you share so much with one person it is hard to just forget everything so easily, i can't just turn my feelings off.
I know that there are no answers just wanting to vent. It is down to me to accept that this is the way it is. Part of me thinks he has not closed the door to this A leaving him an opportunity to contact me again, but I can't live on that hope because it may never happen.
I have made myself a promise that I won't send him anymore messages as this is only making me feel worse, and I am probably making a fool of myself in the process.
Just having a bad today and although I don't regret my A I just wish I could walk away as easily as he seems to have.
ali x

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"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
I think the only thing wrong with you is something deep inside (could be a bad experience from the past, could be self esteem, etc) that draws you to the wrong kind of man.
Thanks lexi my mum would probably give me a good hard shake if she knew what I had been up to LOL
I have took onboard all the advice offered to me on these boards and I am grateful to everyone that took the time to reply.
I have been sleeping badly for a few weeks now and that hasn't helped. I have however been eating a lot better and trying to look after myself so that is a good sign. I keep telling myself I have been through worse than this and got over it and moved on so I know that I will be ok.
cyber ghugs are good I am trying not to talk about XAP much in front of my friends as I feel that they must be fed up of me by now, thats why
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