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|Sat, 03-02-2013 - 6:42pm|
o my MM went on a vacation for 10 days with his W....we are on very limited contact.
IT SUCKS BIGTIME.
Im not sure which is worse, no contact or a text msg here and there that seems to arrive when I cant respond right away. I know I really have no right to complain because I am spoiled rotten by his attention, and his needs for communication are as high as mine so I know he is missing it just as much, but I am miserable. And of course, things with my H are absolutely spiraling out of control. So thanks for the double whammy!
We knew this was coming obviously, so we had a wonderful day together this week, we discussed how much this relationship has changed us and the perspective it shines on our "other life". We seem to have so many things in common, we feel the same about so many things, we even have the same phobias and same childhood experiences....in another life, another time.... We talked a lot recently about how we were not looking to fall in love, how we both were very unsure about the physical aspect and how far it would go. We met on am, we emailed for a month, met for our first date. We hugged at the very end, no hand holding or anything....sigh, he's such a gentleman...:) We did not get a second date for two more weeks, but since that first
date, I knew he was it. It has been a weekly date since then, sometimes two if his schedule brings him my way again. We knew we were in trouble when the sex was amazing lol.
We both admit that luck intervened because he pursued me, I wanted local but gave him a shot because of his job. We both know how lucky we are to have eachother as well. I told him before he left that he owed me nothing, that I wanted him to have fun and enjoy himself. I also told him that if their trip sparked something anew between himself and his wife, that it was ok. His response was "I could never not see you again, I love you my princess". I honestly tried to keep up a wall to protect myself from getting hurt but those words broke the little bit that was left right down. I will admit that I have been careless with my heart and let her out there for a massive beating this time.
I told him I would cry when I left, but then he told me he would never sleep if I cried. So in the interest of his business meetings he had the next two days before vacation, I held it together. He had tears in his eyes when he walked away. I left and had to pull over after a bit. I cried at work the night before he left when he emailed me from the airport to tell me how hard this was already and forvthe first time, he put ily in an email.