His wife is going to have a baby .oh no
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His wife is going to have a baby .oh no
| Sun, 11-02-2003 - 10:17pm |
I came to this room due to i know no one elce but this room would know the pain Im in. I saw my MM today. I have been seeing him for over a year now. He is perfect as far as looks he is a cop so that should say it all. Our relationship is just based on sex only. We dont go to the movies or dinner . IT is just sex.. But good sex. I mean we coould lay in bed for 8 hours and just have sex and we do. Well today my bubble was bursted when we were talking about somethiing and he said his wife was going to have a baby. He just said it like no big deal. My heart sank. His wife and him could not have children and i guess they went through Invetro and well it worked. Now it has been two hours and im like feeling really hurt. Crying and just thinking NOOO. He said her having a baby is not going to affect our relationship. He also says that he will never let me go due to im just too perfect for sex. The weird part is I guess i am deeply in love with him. I find myself smelling my sheets after he leaves and thinking about him until the next meeting. Deep down i wish i was having his baby and he loved me. But I know that i should get realty. It is what it is and get over it. I went into this over a year ago with no feelings But now i do care. I do want him and i am in pain. Please tell me what you would do. Should i keep seeing him?? Or should i say it is time to get out now due to my heart is breaking??? If i do tell him my feelings I know he will not see me anymore.

i just don't have any good advice for you, but you are not alone. This room is full of people who care for their MM, and i know some women here are dealing with MM who have pregnant wives.
Look inside your heart you have to make some tough decisions. To decide if you want to keep going, break it off, tell him the truth.
Good luck i just wanted you to know you are not alone!
jen
I'm so sorry for the pain you're feeing...I also did silly things like smelling his scent. Please know that most everyone on this board knows what you're feeling on one level or another and are here for you. Take care and be strong.
Make yourself and your emotional and mental health your #1 priority - if the weight you are carrying is overwhelming you may consider making some changes. There is nothing easy about the situations we all are in - they are definately best described a fierce roller coaster ride...be true to yourself and your MM...be expressive and be honest and most importantly be realistic.
*hugs*
email me at callmeliberal@hotmail.com if you wish
cl-liberalgirl