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| Wed, 03-31-2004 - 11:27pm |
Well here's some breaking news, the other guy immed me and said that he didnt say anything to MM about us talking and stuff. He said he felt guilty and the reason why he didnt confess was b/c he was testing me to see if i would break but when i sent him an im telling him that i didnt care if MM knew and basically cussed the other guy out, he said he was very proud of me for not letting him get to me and that all of this was a test to really realize that i deserve better treatment than MM is giving me and also it was a test for him also whatever that means. He did say that he did hear from some of their friends that MM is an emotional player, i guess that kinda means he plays with women's emotions and feelings, gets what he wants and then hurts them, he even said MM does it to his wife, anyway it's really odd. The bad news is i am letting go of MM, i am tired of doing all the work in the A and MM not putting any effort into it.i am tired of calling him,imming,emailing etc. As i sit here and think about everything i have went thru with MM it isnt worth it. I am not going to sit here and check my email several times hoping and praying there is a message from him. Calling MM and him avoiding my calls, i deserve better, alot better. Even though this made me a complete wreck, it really opened up my eyes to see the red flags. I am not going to put my life on hold for MM any longer, no more of my time and energy will be put towards the A. It's going to be hard but i am a strong person and i have dealt with worse issues than this. I know that i will cry alot and keep asking myself why he said he finally loved me when he really didnt. This A has made me change into someone i am not and i dont even recognize myself anymore, i know that's sad. If MM does come back, he will have to prove to me he cares about me and show it too and that he's going to take action. Well guys thank you so much for your support and listening to me vent. Yall have been wonderful to me and i appreciate it. I hope everyone's A will work out for them. I dont know if i am going to leave this board and head over to the ending affair board just yet since i want MM to hear it from my mouth not by email. Take care

First. A test? And he's proud of you? Um. Not likely.
More likely is he was playing you to see if you had any interest in him, and if you had any latent interest at all to see if he could "force" you into sex. What a load of crap. He knows he's busted and wants to try to find a way out since he knows the MM will be looking for him.
Second. Good for you for saying you'll get out. I do agree that you deserve more and better, and that if you're doing all the work it isn't much of a R. There seem to be some red flags, you're right.
Good luck with things. Take care.
rain