How do I let go

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-18-2003
How do I let go
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Mon, 03-15-2004 - 1:32pm
My h is mad and trying to forgive me.I don't think he ever will.I love h but want to be with OM too.I know I can't have my cake and eat it too.OM wants to talk with me later.I told him yea we need to talk.I miss him when he's not around.I'm not sure if what I feel for OM is love or just lust.We spent/spend alot of time talking too.H said this upset him more than the sex.Because of the bond OM and I have created through all of our talking.

I still know OM doesn't love me.H swears there's some emotion because of how OM acts around me.this weekend everyone was smoking.I never have I did.OM was not happy.He brushed it off making a joke.I walked a freind out.He cornered me and told me don't smoke anymore.I don't want it to hurt you.(I had Epilepsy until I was 15,then I had a stroke then following my brain surgery for the seizures.)I

All hell broke loose this weekend.We cooked out with freinds OM was here too.Some of our freinds heard me call OM baby when he asked me something.I said yea baby.OOPS.I often use endearments though.I tried to brush it off.H says he forgives me but keeps taking potshot comments at me.

I hope after we talk to let go.But I'm not going to lie if he touched me now I know I'd give in.I'm working on it.

OM called late last night about 1AM.(H was pissed) to tell me he was ok(he left last night)and we need to talk today.He called a few minutes ago and told H tell Renee I'll see her later,if not it will be tomorrow.H is guarding the phone like a hawk.

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Registered: 03-13-2004
In reply to: oimom
Mon, 03-15-2004 - 1:53pm

You said you love you H, but are you in love with him? And how do you feel about your OM? If you are trying to break it off with him, i would suggest meeting him in a public place, that way if he touches you then you know you

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