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how have you changed?
| Fri, 05-01-2009 - 12:09pm |
for those who are still in an A -
how have you changed since it started? feeling better or worse or both? learned something about yourself, your marriage or life in general?
what's new with you as an AP?
Mrs.

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I am a happier person these days.
I may not be right person to answer,but i'll play,lol!
I have had a couple of A's ,just PA ,no emotions whatsoever.My last AP was much younger than me and now thats how i have changed-- i dont find men around my age ( i am 54) attractive,at all.I have tried in the last few weeks but i just cant bring myself to go in for someone closer to my age.
You were not looking for this but i threw my story in!!
Its made me appreciate me, its made me open my eyes and realise i can live and be my true self. Wether i dress to kill or just hanging around in my slouchy scruffs, wether im all made up or no make-up at all, wether im having a good hair day or a bad hair day, wether im feeling miserable or on top of the world. No matter what ive learned that someone loves me totally for being my true self.
I have changed, I have grown into ME, I stand upto my H and dont allow him to patronise me in so many ways. As for my marriage ive learned that what i beleived was love, was in fact just a habit.
I am happier, but also I cant beleive so many years have seen me by without me experiencing the emotions for another person that my A has made me feel.
The going is good, life is for living, and I have learned to beleive that what will be will be, and if you cant reach out and grab then make the most of what is given.
SS
"be yourself, disguise not, for your a truly unique beautiful being"
"be yourself, disguise not, for your a truly unique beautiful being"
To echo the sentiments of another poster, I may not be the right person to ask, but I'll play.
how have you changed since it started?
why wouldn't you be the right person to answer? or martialartsmom?
BTW i have a notorious reading problem. i keep thinking your name is martianmom LOL.
Mrs.
Wow! How HAVEN'T I changed, is more like it!
I can identify most, & echo alot
Good question Mrs!
Hmmm let's see... this A turned me into a horrible person. I cry myself to sleep every night. It changed me as a person - let me explain. When I was younger, I was sooo much in love with the idea of love. This big fairy tale with a prince charming and all... I believed that it existed and was out there. I wanted to desperately to be married and have children. I love big families and the thought of being a wife/mom.
This A jaded me - it made me give up my dream, it made me turn into a cold, bitter, angry woman. The "fairytale" is GONE. =( I am paranoid that people cheat and what's the point of getting married? A soul mate doesn't exist. I am jealous ALL the time of what other people have that I don't have! I am jealous of his wife - although I KNOW i shouldn't be! I know that *I* am better off than she is! BUT I can't help but be jealous! I am jealous of my friend's relationships - why can't *I* have that???
This is not who I am/was!!!!! I wasn't like this before the A! This A makes me have to deal with emotions that single women my age shouldn't have to deal with!
I hate being in love so much with a man I don't have! A man that lies and cheats...a man that when I see him, I cry inside because I'm so happy being with him but I know it's short lived and he has his "own" life aside from mine.
*sgh*
I'm just more sad all the time...
Hey Mrs.-
Before anwsering your Q, I just want to tell you how much I enjoy reading your posts. You always have
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