Husband is coming home...

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Registered: 02-26-2004
Husband is coming home...
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Sat, 03-13-2004 - 9:47pm
So it has been about 10 days since my amazing night with my young bartender friend. I haven't talked to him since, thought I would call him next week. If it was only one night that is fine, if I am lucky enough to have another, that would be better. My H has been out of town for 3 1/2 weeks and is coming home tomorrow. I am nervous about re-uniting with him, what if he somehow knows that I was unfaithful. I don't think he would ever suspect anything -- I am too much of a good girl/perfect wife. But I am not really looking forward to seeing him...This constant seperation from his never ending work is definately beginning to take its toll on me. I feel bored and trapped so much of the time. I love my kids more than anything, but am so desperate for a break sometimes that I feel guilty. Perhaps the hot 29 year old was not the best choice in terms of finding a release and a break from my monotonous life... LOL

I went out to dinner with a girlfriend last night (who happens to be having major trouble in her marriage) and flirted excessively with another man. An older, very sophisticated, very wealthy man. He was completely smitten with me. Gave me an amazing back rub while we sat in the cocktail lounge. I gave him my cell phone number but was very clear that I was married and didn't know if I would call him back or not. That I would see how I felt and take it from there. He just wants to take me out to dinner for now, and see... The thing that struck me as my friend and I drove home (she made-out with my suitors friend!) was that this gentleman was very much like what my husband will be in about 15 years. I just don't get what is going on with me...

Not sure why I slept with the young one (but so glad I did cause it was the best sex I can remember having -- last time I was remotely interested in doing it more than once with my husband...well? definately was before we were married), not sure why I would consider going out with this new one... I can't really seem to find any answers within myself.

Hopefully all goes well with my H -- but he will only be home for two days before he leaves again so I am sure I can keep it together for that long! And hopefully I can arrange an evening with my young bartender after he is gone again...
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Registered: 02-22-2004
Sat, 03-13-2004 - 10:00pm
I hear you..."last time doing it with H'... I can't stand when he tries to want me. I know I should at least fake it and do the deed with him but it just repulses me. I am waiting on my MM (who is 6 yrs younger than me)to find the nerve to "be" with me. I know I need to back off and wait.... I just can't stop thinking about him.

You can make it for two days.... AND THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU. I have the exact same inner emotions about myself.

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