i am back here again-different MM- Egads
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i am back here again-different MM- Egads
| Fri, 03-05-2004 - 8:22pm |
Hi again- anyone who read my other posts will hopefully not think bad of me but here goes. My life I think has come full circle0 3 wks ago I was the 'hunter' now I 'm wondering if I am the "huntee". This man I know- we have been exchanging emails. Well, they have gotten to be to the point of what I believe would be classified as cyber-sex. I am as much the culprit here as he is. However, when we see each at public events, we hang out a little together and when no one is around our conversation reverts to what we have talked about that day in our emails. I don't really know how seriously he would go with this thing- he told last night at an event that sometime he's going to invite me somewhere and I would think it would be an innocent invite but that it would not be. Get my drift? I answered back I would not have it any other way.(meaning I would be willing to have sex) He had a look on his face as if the rubber had hit the road and we were both serious. Today, in an email I tested him a bit further and said I would discreetly meet him somewhere. He emailed back that he was 'smiling.' He also said I would see him sweat (I would imagine during S- but I won't get into that part of our email...). ANYHOW... I responded in a positive way to this and then he never responded back. We had two other emails going at the same time as this one where again sex is the conversation. It is very racy to say the least. We know each other pretty well. There is no R involved here- definately purely a physcial thing we are talking (emailing) about. The emails are sooo intense and very 'hot' in nature. SO, to the men in the crowd- is MM getting nervous and cold feet now that he knows that I would be willing to 'meet'? He is 33 - beem married since he was 20 and has 4 kids. I again am 40 - 2 kids, married, etc.
Anything going on here? Can two people talk VERY sexual like this in emails ( which I knoew is dangerous) and just consider it as flirting? Is there an underlying thing here? He seems to have a good marriage and I am NOT out to break that up ( nor mine even though it sucks.)
Help me gentlemen ( and ladies)
PS: PLEASE DON"T THINK I'M A TRAMP. THIS WHOLE THING WAS NOT STARTED BY ME, BUT BY HIM.

You say your marriage sucks... so the risk only adds to the excitement. Communicate via web based email only unless getting caught does not really matter and by reading your posts that's probably the case here. Remember email is a record and people can always find a way to read your messages. Mail.com or like is your answer. Always double delete messages and delete history, temporary internet files, and especially cookies! I hope this was helpful and good luck with your adventure.
Ok- now what?
I am lost and sad, a little depressed too about the day. I miss him.