i am going just a little crazy here.

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i am going just a little crazy here.
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Wed, 03-26-2003 - 4:59pm
my MM had somethingimportant to do today. and that could add more miles between us. i am trying to be patient here but now i find that getting hard to do. and i am not even sure if he will be able to get on tonight to let me know how it went. then to complicant things more H will be home tomorow night. seems like there are times that i really hate this part. i know once he goes back to work we will be able to talk everyday again. you know i want him to do what is right for him, and then i hope things dont go well cuz i dont want more land between us. am i allowed to be selfish ?
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Wed, 03-26-2003 - 5:03pm
no, youre not being selfish. youre being human. :)
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Wed, 03-26-2003 - 5:11pm
I believe you have every right to be selfish. I know how you are feeling. I an new to this board so bear with me. The last time I saw the OM was on Friday. My H has been around so I have had to very careful. At least I can call mine at work. I did today. It was great to hear his voice. My OM is my H brothers best friend. I really am playing with fire over here! :-). I need to stick it out with H for 2 more years. We have to much debt too pay off. I dream about him @ night. I sure hope dreams come true! AAGGHH. I almost called out the OM name last night while having sex w/ H. My H is always around. I can't wait till he starts working Saturday's and Sunday's again. It is going to be soon! Just wanted to know I feel you. Baby
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Wed, 03-26-2003 - 6:45pm
heck yeah you can be selfish. We constantly fight the battle of knowing whats right & what they need to do but in reality we want what makes us feel good. And thats them with us. I am always fighting that battle of wanting more & more but trying not take it too far.
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Wed, 03-26-2003 - 7:00pm
Of course you're allowed to feel selfish... it's what you do about it that matters! Now if you sabotage whatever it is he's doing that might mean a promotion, a raise, etc., that would increase the distance between you then I'd say you're not being particularly loving. But as long as you're wishing and on occasion voicing those wishes... he should know, if nothing else to know how much he means to you.

I hope he contacts you soon and it all works out. Do something to make yourself feel better... eat ice cream! LOL. But seriously, do something to pamper yourself.

-lily

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Wed, 03-26-2003 - 8:23pm
You can definately be selfish...we all have those pangs inside of us whether we want to admit it or not...when things are going well and our "routine" so to speak is going well...it bothers us that things may change and how will that ultimately affect the relationship...had the opportunity to talk to my MM this morning for about 2 min. only to find out my main way of communicating with him is changing..and i'm not sure the impact at this point...so i can understand where you are...

keep positive thoughts..and take it step by step..

molly