I am sick to my stomach!
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I am sick to my stomach!
| Mon, 04-19-2004 - 8:04am |
Last night I decided to email back MM on his business email. He had sent it to me and others in the office about a price update. I replied with something in Italian (sexy) Well he emailed me back and we went back and forth. It was so much fun because we never do that.
Well he sends me a last email saying "Radar alert!! Delete all text!! I will call YOU in the morning" I thought wow did DW come down stairs?? So I just went to bed.
This morning I realized one of us could have hit the "reply all" button!! If that happened then some people in the office would have gotten our very hot exchange!
He will probably call me in the next few minutes, and our relationship will be over :( I am shaking like a leaf here knowing I am going to lose him. I can't stand this. So I am typing up my resume' I will have to go get another job anyway!
UGH!!!!!!!!!!
I'll let you know, I'll be crying all day!
deedee

GB2
I would be worried but not so sure of it ending if he hadn't ended it before because of my lack of judgement. At this point I don't know if it was maybe him or me who would have hit the "reply all" button, but he capitalized "you" in his last email so I assume he is mad at me. Last time I was a little drunk and over his house when I thought we were alone and he made this little smile at me I whispered "take me home we can go by lovers lane". He said I was louder than I thought and his DW was nearby. He thought everything was too risky and when we got back together he said we would have to be more discreet!
I don't ever hit reply all so I don't know how I could have, but it isn't impossible. He was the one who had been drinking so I would think it was him, but how stupid I shoul dhave started a new email after he replied! God I could kick myself. I just know he is going to end it now! His head rules his heart so I doens't matter if he has those "deep feelings" for me!
:(
deedee
I still haven't heard from him, so maybe no news is good news??? Or maybe not! I just know it is over and I am feeling sick, today I have to take those clients from the UK around too!
Sheesh will this ever stop?!
deedee
First of all, take a deep breath. You don't even know what happened yet and you don't know for sure that it's over. 90% of what we worry about never happens. I almost always let my imagination run away with me when I'm worried about something...so I know what I'm talking about.
Second of all, remember that there are people on this board who are sending good, positive thoughts your way. Be sure to let us know what happens. We're thinking about you.
Jess
I still haven't heard from him and it's driving me nuts, I am getting more and more shook up over this. I wonder if he is busy doing damage control and/or just busy with work related things and can't call me .... yet. I know if what happened is what I thought happened then he is thinking of what he will say and I know it won't be good. From his last email I can't think of anything else he could have ment. Since it was so late it might have been his business partner who called/emailed him. Hopefully he came up with a plan (ie.. email everyone and tell them not to open the mail as it contains a virus would have been good)
I know he has feelings for me, but after his parents divorced when he was 21 he has put keeping his family life together a priority in his life and it comes first. I can't believe I was that stupid. I was doing so well, not contacting him, keeping him wondering. One email one click of a button and everything was turned upside down! UGH!!
deedee
Edited 4/25/2004 8:39 am ET ET by julietsfate
I am sure he will end it because even though I know he has feelings for me, in his words "deep" feelings, he said when we reconcilled last time that he would do anything to keep his family together. So one would assume ending it with me would be the least he would do.
I am sitting here waiting on pins and needles, afraid to call him. I don't understand if it is that serious why he wouldn't call me and let me know ASAP, I mean I should be told if everyone got our email.
And to think the next to last email he said "I want to hear you cum again"
Sigh
First... um... not to be rude or insensitive, cuz I love the sexy email as much as anyone... but let's not repeat such intimate emails word for word. It kind of made me feel weird about replying; your MM may be a little bit right about the idea of increasing discretion on your part...
Second... calm down, girl. From the perspective of someone who has had a similar situation, it might only mean that his W sat down at the PC and clicked on his email account or looked over his shoulder or came in as hit minimized a window. It could be LOTS of things.
He probably said he would call YOU because he wanted to be clear that you should not call him because he expects what I used to call "supervision." He likely wants to be clear that no matter what, you should not contact him because he will make contact when he's sure it's safe to do so. I would STRONGLY advise you adhere to this or risk seriously angering him; I know I would be if I told OW something so simple and she chose to compromise my situation to satisfy her curiosity. Selfish, I know, but I'm being honest.
Technical mumbo jumbo in case you care: "Reply All" would only work if it was your reply to the original email. Then all of the addresses that were "To" and CC'd in his original email would have gotten the one you replied with. Even then, only your first reply would have went to everyone; for it to continue, he also would have had to hit "Reply All." If you use an email account that copies sent files to a folder you can go and check the addresses it went out to. But it all sounds pretty unlikely. And if it did happen, you deleting the text would be worthless because so many other people would have it.
rain
Yeah I was pretty emotional this morning. I am pretty level headed on the outside though and I have been VERY discreet since this started. I have since found the deleted last message and I suppose in my haste to get offline I didn't notice that at the end of the email sentence he wrote "night night x" So it really doesn't sound like someone got our emails. And the "radar alert" would make sense if DW had come down stairs calling for him. I haven't heard from him either which is normal, I would think if others got our emails I would have heard from him first thing. And no I won't call him either.
Thanks for the "technical mumbo jumbo" it makes me feel even better because my response was pretty tame and I KNOW I only clicked "reply" on that one!
sorry about the personal stuff ::::blushing::::::
deedee
Now I found out my phone was turned off, due to an error on my banks part. But now I worry he did try to call, but there are other ways to contact me.
oh well I still think I would have heard by now if there was a problem
thanks guys
deedee