I am still hanging !

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Registered: 03-05-2004
I am still hanging !
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Sun, 05-30-2004 - 7:16pm
This has been the hardest thing I have ever done in my life ! I have talked on the phone only a couple of times in the last 60 days! MM told me he told his wife everything ! He keeps telling me to let him get through this . It seems so selfish ! School is out in a couple days and his W is suppose to leave him. I have no idea what is going on ! I fear I have lost everything. Friendship and love. It just seems so unfair ! He told his wife and I just get the crap that goes with that ! He never asked me what it would do to me ? I really want to talk to him. But there is no way to do that. I feel like a real fool.
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Registered: 04-07-2003
Sun, 05-30-2004 - 10:04pm
I feel for you. I have walked in your shoes, not knowing all that was happening with him though. We were "NC" when she was told and I had no idea. I was getting these crank calls (several a day) and such from her and I had no idea... It is so hard to be not in the know... Those days were not the days I never want to re-visit ever. It was hard enough to be in NC mode, but not to know what really was happening was so hard. Drove me nuts...

I don't know why I posted this, but just wanted to get it off my chest. I am still in the dark about a lot of things and what happened, but you know what, what I am going to do about that?? Nothing. Just wait and wonder and wonder...


Edited 5/30/2004 10:08 pm ET ET by confusedlife

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Registered: 03-05-2004
Sun, 05-30-2004 - 10:30pm
Glad to know someone out there is hanging with me! I can't do anything to end it because it is what I want! I want to be there for him. I love him and he knows it! No games! Just the real thing! Waiting for the time we will be able to spend together with no guilt! He has got to get it together soon. Time is running out for him. financial ruin is inevitable! I don't care! I will help him as much as possible. I know that child support will be the biggest issue. And if she doesn't leave now that she knows about us? Well , He will be living in pure H--l until one of them goes. I just need to know that he finally knows what he wants out of life! Prayers to ya! Hang in there and hope for the best. I am doing just that !