I am such a fool...
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I am such a fool...
| Fri, 03-12-2004 - 5:30pm |
So, I thought today was THE day MM and I would connsummate our bond. We have known each other for quite some time and just recently have 'found' each other. We have been emailing to the ponit of cyber-sex I guess you'd say. Well, today we had lunch and spent 3 hrs talking. We put his arm around me and I had my had on this innner thigh. I guess I thought based upon our emails that sex would occur. Instead, we just flirted a lot and gave each other inuendos. When he walked me to my car, he held and sord of kissed me. I definately planted my kiss on him and held him as well. I then asked him to sit in my car with me (front passenger side) but he nicely declined. He said "not this time' or ' not today'- something along those lines. So, we left in separate cars.
I really thought today was the day- I am such a fool and feel sooo hurt. Frly do let doen and humiliated. Why do I let tjhis happem- Anyoez?????
What's up here ,,,,, anyone?????

I met MM online. We chatted on and off for a few weeks. Then met at a bar for a drink and talk at lunch. He aftewards walked me out to my car, we exchanged a kiss and hug, that was it.
Then the next week, we met again for lunch. Another drink, some more talking, then we end up in my van (in the back seat, it has tinted windows). So we had some more kissing, a little feeling each other and that was it for that day).
Then we talked later on that day, and we both agreed that there was a definite chemistry between us and we decided to meet next time at a hotel, and well as they say, its history from there.
Anyways, that was about 2-1/2 years ago. We've been seeing each other ever since.
Maybe your guy just needs time to figure out if its right for him? Maybe you could say something along the line to let him know, you are still interested in more even after meeting him. Guys can sometimes be insecure too. And talking about sex over the internet is alot different than in person.
You are not a fool or anything. And don't feel bad, he's probably just a little nervous or something.
Just give him a little time, I'm sure he'll come around!! And when he does, look out!!
Dusty
Also, one thing I need advice on, he mentioned that he needs to teach his son to always be 'careful' so that he does not get 'trapped'. Since my MM is 34, been married 10 yrs and has a 13 yr old ( with wife) does that mean he feels he was 'trapped'? He played football at the local U and told me had the choice of continuing football or raising his son. He chose his son of course and says he would never have it any other way, but really wishes he could have played ball as well. He and W got married three yrs later and had three more kids. Again, they are still together and seem happy. Otherwise, I believe he would have been willing to go through with it yesterday. If we were to get together again, would things progress further? Will we eventually end up between the sheets?
Any men care to comment? Is my MM selfish? Just using me to boost his ego? He sure does not come across that way. Rather a shy, quiet guy he is...
Help....
Buckarooblues@aol.com
Or email me and I'll mail mine to you...
~laurie~
You know the first time i met my MM face to face he was shaking more than me!
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