I broke! I called him !!!
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I broke! I called him !!!
| Wed, 04-21-2004 - 5:13pm |
I couldn't take it anymore! I broke down and just called! Didn't care if his W answered or not! I was losing everything so what was the difference? Well, He answered the phone and we talked. I told him I was pissed! I let him have it! He said he was hopeing that I would learn to hate him. That he was a a## and that he didn't want me to be in the middle and get hurt too. I told him it was too late for that. He said we had to put everything on hold. He said til he gets thru this! He is not taking all this financial ruin stuff good at all. He told me he wished we would of just stayed friends instead of getting romanticaly involved. I said it is too late for that! I told him this was killing me. I asked him if he thought I would just let him walk out of my life without a good-bye? He said no! He knew I wouldn't. He said it wasn't a good-bye. Just on hold he needs sometime to get the finacial part together. I asked him if he was trying to get back with the W. HE SAID NO! She was leaving! He said they had filed! He also said both girls want to live with him! He needs to have a home for them so he is trying to keep his place. I know he is hurting. He said he doesn't even want to be around people anymore. I told him to get to the doctor and get on something for his nerves. He puts up these stupid walls to protect himself. I hate it! He just makes himself numb to the world. I cried and he told me not to! I at least know he is trying to protect me from any hurt. This is a very hard thing to go through. I told him tomorrow is my last day at work for six days. He said he would come and see me. I can't give up hope! I know he needs my suport. He told me he would have my money by the 1st week of May. God I hope so. I want that not to be between us.
