I cannot deal with him amymore
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| Thu, 05-13-2010 - 6:32pm |
I'm so tired of my AP and lets just throw my xap in that statement too!
I've had pretty much NC from AP since oh the middle of April. I get a IM every week...he can never talk. So my guess is I'm in a A that is just him calling me for sex whenever he wants. That's so not how I wanted this to work. I need to have that we need to end this crap once and for all talk, but I keep hoping that he will contact me and explain his nonsense. I don't think that's going to happen....ughhh..
And xap...Really lets me ask you guys this. If you send a IM or text to someone or even your AP do you usually get something back? Well apparently I cause drama when I get upset when xap does not comment on a IM/texts that I send. And really I don't IM him much at all because he is my xap. Well my thought is I was nice enough to comment or even remember something be decent enough to acknowledge it....Oh he shouldnt have to because sometimes he just has nothing to say and he shouldn't have to respond, I'm just suppose to read his mind that he read it and he was happy and not ignoring me... and he wonders why his Gf has not had sex with him in over a year....really dude I have no clue either.lol You a'int getting it from me your not getting it from her...hmmm maybe its you!
So back to AP. So I already gave him one chance at the communication thing I'm not going to give him a second, well I don't want to bend and give him a second. I cant deal with the pulling back after sex...I think I need a bit more than that. I soo think its time to hang up my mistress thong. I'm not a very good one. Silly me for expecting things like communication!
Is it that hard to understand?...be nice to female and give her some attention and female might be nice to you? Somebody enlighten me!lol
Okay rant over.

Oh, Scarlet...First...LOL!!!! @ "hanging up my mistress thong"...seriously...that's FUNNY!
Ah...males and communication :) Has confounded female kind since the dawn of time...
All kidding aside...that is SO frustrating!!
I'm very much married. My AP is married, my xap has a GF. My xap will never ever leave his GF, I know that I will never be with xap, There are too many issues and factors on his end that make it impossible.
My current AP, well I don't see myself with him in the end. I couldn't afford him.lol.
Now I don't want to leave my husband. My goal is not to be divorced. I just want attention when I want attention. Yes I'm being selfish if I wasn't I wouldn't be in a A to begin with. I dont see myself as somebodies side dish, they're mine. And when Im ready to see AP...Im ready. So Like I said before I'm not tearing up the text or IM or email. I pretty quiet really, but when I request a lunch date I better get a answer....
I guess, No, I know I hate the double standard, why do men get to snap there fingers and we are suppose to jump? what?...no sorry...Only if he jumps when i snap mine.
Im not a very good mistress......
I'd be pretty PO'd to not get a response from AP to a text/IM/email I had sent.
anotherseyes
I have ponderd the single guy for a AP. I just cant get comfortable with it. I guess I wonder why a SM would want to be with a MW? They are open and could be with anybody single. Lets me put it this way. If I was single I would not want to be with a MM. Buts thats just my take, not hating on anyone who is S and has a Married AP. To each their own.
Yes your right. Im not very happy and I have my email up and Im ready to start typing the "we need to end this" message. I just cant bring myself to do it. So Im venting here trying to calm down and find perspective.
And if he would just respond or acknowledge I wouldn't be so headstrong right now...
anotherseyes