I can't beleive I did it
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I can't beleive I did it
| Tue, 06-30-2009 - 10:21pm |
I have been married for 18 years. Never been with anyone besides my husband. Until today. I met someone and after a few kisses I was begging him to make love to me. We didn't actually do the physical act but we did do alot of kissing and petting.
The problem is I don't even feel guilty. I want to see him again.
What should I do?

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Not feeling guilty is a good thing.
IF you are willing to risk your 18 year marriage, embarrassment and possible emotional attachment then by all means...go for it.
I know this sort of sounds crazy but we decided that we would do everything except actually make love. I have only seen him twice but I am enjoying our sessions. I really thought I would feel guilty. It has had the opposite affect on me. Because we aren't actually making love my sex life at home has improved.
Is this just the beginning stages or will this last? Again I am new to this. But I want to keep seeing him.
Most affairs do run through recognizable stages.
An affair is an affair --- with or without intercourse.
UC
Your feelings are certainly understandable given you've been married 18 yrs and only been with your husband.
Thank you so much for your words. I really appreciate having people to discuss this with. I am so conflicted. On the one hand I really want to be with this guy but on the other hand I don't want to mess up my marriage. No one could have told me that I would have ever been in this situation. I would have never thought that I would be the OW and be involved with a MM. I just don't know what to do. I have tried to follow the D-Day thread but have been unable to find it. Can someone point me in the right direction.
I am thinking that if I read enough my mind will overrule my body and I will make the right choice.
Undercover,
Because you stated that you were conflicted, I'll throw in my two cents.
In a quiet moment, picture the look on your husband's face the moment he learns of what has happened.
If that look doesn't bother you, then I guess you have your answer.
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