i don't even know anymore
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| Mon, 03-01-2004 - 12:05am |
Haven't written in a while, but I feel the need too.
I don't know what's going on anymore. I don't know exactly what to think about us.
4 years into this and I guess this is our first "real slump". We've had others, but this one seems different. He has called me on his way home from work and like clockwork we would have our "fun, play talk", but lately there's been no talk for a few weeks, maybe a month. I think. He still calls on his way home, but now he complains about work and just doesn't seem in a good mood.
He's been under a lot of pressure at work among other things. Has been in a grouchy mood, but instead of being happy to talk to me. He's just been grouchy and irritable. There use to be 2 or 3 emails a day while he was at work, but now there few and far between. I've mentioned it to him and he said he doesn't have time anymore because of work.

CL-Gurlfriend50
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Thanks you guys.
I sent him a couple of emails about it this morning. He says the same thing. Work! I even left the door open about maybe this was his nice way of letting me go, but he says he's not and to try and trust him that it is work. He im'ed me so we got to have a little extra talk about this and he says he's not really in the mood for anything cause he's tired. He's been dealing with health issues too.
4 years and yes, this is more then a sexual thing. We can talk about other things, lol.
This has always been a LDA. It's been hard, but we've been continuning on as such.
I guess, I was thrown off because things have changed. I was worried. I can handle this if that's all it really is and he says it is so either I believe him or I don't.
4 years ladies. I'm not ready to let go. I don't want to, but you know how sometimes in the back of your head you start thinking about things. Maybe analyzing them too much. Maybe, I'm doing just that.