i emailed my lover after 5 months of NC.

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i emailed my lover after 5 months of NC.
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Sat, 02-06-2010 - 1:29am
when one does not love too much, one does not love enough --blaise pascal
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Sat, 02-06-2010 - 8:41am

Oh dear! you are going crazy here.
(( hugs ))
Just bumping your post up!

It sounds like your AP is a SM.

An A is no fun when emotions and feelings get involved.It brings a lot of heartache with it.IMO,it is love.Love does hurt even though it is not supposed to as you have fallen for a person whom you cant be with ,no matter how you both long to.
IMO,A's are fun if its only sex.

No words of wisdom here.I hope you find peace with your AP.

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Sun, 02-07-2010 - 3:41am

what does SM mean?


and how do you not get emotionally attached after seeing someone for earthrocking sex about twice a month for over a year and a half? certainly, we do not tell each other we love each other at all. because it's not love. it's this mad, crazy want -- Not LOve-- this I know. love is a series of actions. we have a deep profound lust for each other. we seem to be wise enough to understand this.


how

when one does not love too much, one does not love enough --blaise pascal
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Sun, 02-07-2010 - 11:30am
Time does not heal anything, actions do. And the adage about getting under someone to get over someone else sounds cute but has no real truth to it.
If you really want to get over him you have to work on it.
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Tue, 02-09-2010 - 12:50pm

thank you for the comment. you are right, if i really want to get over him, i do need to let time to take its' course and wait, wait, wait.


i just missed him so much: his touch, his laugh, his witty conversation. it was really hard to not contact him for as long as i did, and going forward if we do see each other again, i know it will be for just a short while as he is scheduled to move this summer for a residency program.


would i want to continue our interactions via long-distance? sometimes i think i would have to, and other times i can't even deal with us being two cities away and seeing him twice a month.


i don't love him, i am just crazy for him

when one does not love too much, one does not love enough --blaise pascal