I Give Up...I Quit
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I Give Up...I Quit
| Mon, 05-24-2004 - 3:14pm |
After almost 2 years,I told him it was over this morning, I don't quite know how I will make it through. We work together so there is no way that I can get around not seeing him. I can't handle one day being so happy and the next just the opposite. I love him so much and always will but I can't handle this feeling any longer.
Thanks

One more thing, he left her last week and is already back home, it didn't last a week.
I'm sorry you are hurting so much right now. I know how you feel. But I must share with you that I think you did the right thing. I think your MM has some serious issues he needs to fix. He does not seem ready, whether it is immaturity or an inability to handle the stress of your A, to be in a caring and loving R with you. It sounds like he cared about you deeply but still his inability to communicate and treat you respectfully was causing you pain. This was not a healthy R to be in. Take the fact that your R was an A out of the equation, and see that you deserve nothing but the best another person can offer. Everyone messes up in R from time to time but what is important is how they deal with fixing what they have done to hurt you. This man did not have your best interests at heart....if he did you would see the concern in his eyes, and it should have killed him inside to see you hurting. This is what true love is all about.
Take the time you need to heal. Cry a LOT. Get angry. Forgive him for hurting you and then move on. You have a whole wonderful life ahead of you. If there's one thing you can always count on, it is that the sun will always come out after the rains are over and you WILL live to laugh again. Remember to never rely on a man to make you happy, you can find happiness within yourself. It IS possible. And someday when you least expect it, there he will be...your knight on the big white horse.
I hope I have helped in some small way.
Hugs,
Brin