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I got great news to tell everyone!!
| Sun, 10-26-2003 - 10:03pm |
Hey everyone, well i just wanted to let yall know what's been going on in my ema. Some of you may remember my last post about breaking it off with MM b/c of his lack of not telling me his feelings about me well, guess what i got a IM from MM wanting us to meet up, i had already figured that it would be the same boring time as in me talking about my feelings and him just ignoring me. So i went and we met up, i knew that it would be a good time to just break it off with MM completely,or so i thought. We went to our spot and talked about general things, i was nervous for some reason, i dont know why though b/c i have been seeing MM for 9mths. Anyways we talked about us, his job, and then out of the blue we start talking about our future, but i was the who intiated that conversation, after trying to read MM'S mind for so long now, i just got brave and started asking him questions about us. I asked him, if he realized he had really strong feelings for me and knew he would want to have a future with me than how would it work out? MM said awhile back that i would have to move to his town he lives in now so it could work out b/c we are right now having a LDEMA and it's hard to see each other b/c of the distance between us, well i asked him in a joking way, would he move to the place i live at now and he said no which i dont blame him, i dont like living here either, then i said would you want me to move to where you live and he said no, i asked him then where? MM said that he would want us to move far away from our state and he named some places. I know that this isnt really big news to you guys but that showed me that he is serious about our relationship, he's planning to want a future with us and that shocked me b/c he's the type who doesnt think ahead just in the present. My MM trys to be hard to figure out but the more i am around him i am starting to pick up on things. MM and I were so affectionate with each other, kissing, holding hands, cuddling and it was sooo great. I asked him if he knew when my b-day was and he said no im not good with dates, i dont even know my wedding anniversary date and he was serious too, so i changed the subject and he just pops up saying the date of my b-day, i asked him then why did you tell me you didnt know and he said "i was trying to throw you off", i thought that was so sweet that he does remember. MM also said that he told someone about us and i asked who and he said the guy's name which i knew him b/c we worked together before, this guy has been friends with MM since they were 15 years old, that was another shocker, i could not believe he told him about us and his friend knows his wife so that was a big risk he was taking, now i dont know what they talked about but i really dont care, knowing that he confided in his friend to open up about our relationship is good enough for me. So we start to leave and i ask him where do i stand with you? MM said that he does have strong feelings for me and i said "give me a little more than that", do you like me alot, do u think you are falling in love with me what? and MM just comes out and tells me that he thinks he is falling in love with me, ladies, i almost passed out seriously, i had some major butterflies going on when he told me that, i felt like i could not breathe and i was speechless.The reason why is i didnt expect it, i thought he would just avoid the whole question but he didnt. It felt so good to hear him say that. I know that MM is not in it for the sex, he said he did that sleeping around thing back in high school and to him it's stupid to have sex with someone that you dont even care about, he said he wants us to have a good and stable relationship and now i know that after all that pushing i had to do it really did work. After all this time and energy i have put into this ema, it has been worth it, he is worth it. I am glad to know that i waited on MM to say how he feels b/c now i know it wasnt in the middle of hot, steamy sex, or giving him a ultimatum, he did it when it felt right for him, it wasnt just about him telling me "he loves me" just to get into my pants, it was when he felt ready to admit to his feelings instead of denying them, so i dont know where all this will go but for right now i am very happy and content with what we have in our relationship. I do love him and if i am dreaming, please dont wake me up lol. Well i have to go but any advice or suggestions will be greatly appreciated. Thanks for listening.
