I just have to vent
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| Tue, 05-18-2004 - 8:31am |
DH and I are in marital therapy (as of about three weeks ago). Our session this week was very painful (he doesn't know about the A; we're dealing with other things) and I have been feeling quite lousy.
I've also been vascillating about MM. On some days I think he's wonderful and on other days I couldn't care less. Terrible, I know.
We don't see each other often, but we email every day and I call about once/week when his wife is at work (she's one of my best friends).
Yesterday he emailed me to say that she's going out of town in a few weekends. He doesn't come right out and say, "Why don't you come down..." Instead, he just throws it out there like bait and apparently is waiting to see what I'm going to do. I clearly can't go down at this point, for a variety of reasons (it's very easy for me to get away in light of my job though. I have built-in travel excuses), but it irritates me that he won't come right out and say that he wants to see me. Trying to protect himself, maybe? I just feel like I'm the one who takes the initiative, lays it all out there, and he gets to just coast along. Not really what I am looking for right now. It's too much like my own real life...lol.
So this morning I get to the office and his wife had sent me some pictures she took over the weekend, and there is one picture of him that is simply....breathtaking. She takes amazing pictures and she really captured him in one specific photograph. I can't be irritated when I see that face....that mouth.
Anyway. I just needed to lay this out to someone who might get it. Thanks if you made it this far.
KC
