I know I shouldn't but i want to?

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Registered: 11-05-2003
I know I shouldn't but i want to?
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Wed, 11-05-2003 - 3:03pm
Hey,

This is my first time posting on any message board..But it feels great to know that there's someone who feels like me. Falling is not the question...I'm a MW who's in love with a MM. He's a person that I've known all my life. I haven't talked to him in 2 years until 2 weeks ago when we met for dinner and yes the feelings are still there & are mutual..We both love our families & say that we're happy...but how can we be when we have the feelings that we do for each other?

I can't get him out of my mind! All we did was go out to dinner to "catch up"; and unfortunately the night ending with an amazing kiss that brought back many memories of us. He wants to see me again, and I want to see him, but it's just not right...I keep telling myself that it isn't, but the attraction is so strong. I don't know what I'm going to do!

Did I mention that we had the most amazing love making when we did date years ago?!

HELP!!

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Registered: 10-06-2003
Wed, 11-05-2003 - 4:02pm
I went through all the emotions at first, but I had to follow my heart,MM and I carried on for 6 months before I spoke up and told him how I felt(we also known each other forever). I'm so glad I did, This with him is amazing. I love ever second of it (ok except being away from him) but I cherish what time I do get. I know this is the man I will spend the rest of my life with...someday!!

But at times it is a roller coster ride, and it not with out some heart ache. But for us for now this is working.

You have to decide what works for you!

dayz
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Registered: 11-05-2003
Wed, 11-05-2003 - 4:12pm
Thanks so much for your response! It's been a very difficult two weeks, but I can't get him out my mind. We don't have any plans to leave our current "home" situations, like I said befor we're "happy" at home...But, I am interested in spending more time with him when I can. Just hearing his voice makes me all tingly!

When I think about my H, I do feel guilty, & I haven't even gone out with my MM yet!

Hopelessly confused!!

Thanks!

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-06-2003
Wed, 11-05-2003 - 4:30pm
I stayed in a cloud the first few weeks after I told MM how I felt, I would sometimes shake all over (excitment). MM and I have a long term plan, about 5 years down the road. Will we make it? Maybe Will one or both of us back out on leave SO? Maybe. But I am totally enjoy the ride. But very cautously. Do not want to get cought or even supected.

Good luck. Follow you heart!!

Keep us posted, you'll love it here!!

dayz
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Registered: 11-05-2003
Wed, 11-05-2003 - 4:36pm
Yeah,

I feel like I'm in a cloud...It's a really nice feeling too! He & I are supposed to get together to have dinner in a few weeks, and i can't wait. The only thing is trying to make time to see him. My schedule is so routine, that it's so hard to get out alone from time to time.

Any suggestions?

iVillage Member
Registered: 09-02-2003
Wed, 11-05-2003 - 11:29pm
Before you go any further... you might want to go to the "Ending an Affair Support" Board.. or even just look at some of the other posts on this board to see what happens after the initial high. Of course an affair can be very exciting... very, very exciting... and fun- until you get caught or one of you pulls away. It's just like any other relationship- it may work out or not, but you have the obstacles of your families and other obligations and trying not get caught. It's really stressful and time consuming. It takes a lot of the energy I would normally put into my kids and my marriage and hobbies. I find it really frustrating that our time together is so limited. If I had to do it over again, I would have never gotten into this. So, there's my two cents. I really love MM and we've had some good times, but I can't say that it's really worth the price I pay. Just my opinion.
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Registered: 10-23-2003
Thu, 11-06-2003 - 8:50am
Yes, the price can get very high at times, sometimes it's not even affordable...LOL

I strongly suggest that you consider the consequences from all angles before you proceed with your MM - Just be aware and move forward cautiously...its a rough road at times and there is a lull after the high so also be prepared for that...

Good luck to you and keep us posted!

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