I need a BIG cyber Hug!!!

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Registered: 03-26-2003
I need a BIG cyber Hug!!!
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Fri, 03-28-2003 - 10:36am
I am going crazy. I want to be with OM so bad that I can't take it anymore. I am ready to leave my H. Things are just getting started between OM. I have never felt like this before. I have only been with H. H & I have been together since I was 15. I'm only 24. AAGGHH!! I can't sleep @ night. I actually cried last night. YUCK! This is not like me. What am I to do? I have kids. I can't leave just yet. I hatet these feelings I am having. I never wanted to fall in love with him. But I can see that is where I am headed. I called him today make sure he doesn't say anything to my H-brother. It is his best friend. I really am playing with fire here. OM said he would never tell. I know he wouldn't. He was the one who stated that he wanted me. I keep running his words through my head. He stated "God I wish you weren't married". I just need a hug. This is going to be a long weekend. At least H is working both days! Hugs to all.
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Registered: 03-26-2003
Fri, 03-28-2003 - 10:42am
I'm sorry I can't offer much advice - my own life is a mess! BUT I can offer you a huge cyber ((((((((((((((((((HUG))))))))))))))))))))). (I'm not sure that's the correct way to indicate a hug - but there it is.) I guess just follow your heart, but don't make any quick decisions. Try to think everything through first. Take care.
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Fri, 03-28-2003 - 10:54am
I know all the emotions are hard to deal with...I was a the same stage a few months ago...for me they have subsided abit(dont know if its good or bad)-at least now I can get *some* sleep. I know with *my* MM he asked me..."where have you been all my life?" wow. I have been with my H since 18, am now 32 and seriously thinking of leaving *sigh*... NOT trying to lessen your experience at all. BTW iloveslz thats a great way for a cyber hug... I know it just drew me in!!! So here is another one for you ibaby1978:

(((((((((((((((HUG))))))))))))))))

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Fri, 03-28-2003 - 11:57am
{{{{{{{HUG}}}}}}}}

Giving you a big cyber HUG!

Its so hard to play the part at home & be dreaming & wishing you were with someone else. If things are just getting started with your OM, you have big & long hurdles to go thru IF you end up with him.....I know talking about leaving your H & doing so are two way different things. Take it slow. Go with the feelings & emotions that make you feel good.

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Fri, 03-28-2003 - 2:23pm
Hugs baby. Relax. you need to breathe slowly. I know when you are first getting into this it is hard to deal with. Especially since you have never been with anyone but your h. Calm down and go take a nice long bubblebath and drink a glass of wine. Then try and remember how beautiful a person you are and that he does not make your life worthwhile. Only you can do that. You need to try and decide if you can handle this before you go any further. We're here if you need us, remember that......hooked
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Fri, 03-28-2003 - 2:41pm
Honey i feel you if you read my post this has been a f*cked day and i want to cry too my mm is off in Jamaica with his w and could care less about me i am so hurt. i never planned to fall in love and i think i am stil fooling myself by saying i am not in love.i think about my mm breakfast lunch and dinner and in my dreams the way he makes me feel no one has ever made me feel that way. i am so sad today. i was praying he was just busy and come to find out he is on vacation, i just want to be with him sooooo bad, well we have no choice but to be strong i am here for you.and sending many huggggggs!!!!

princes

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Fri, 03-28-2003 - 3:04pm
I'm on the flip day but thought I should respond. I'm the OW w/ MM who is so wanting out of his M but just doesn't know the easiest way to do it. I know men and women think differently and every situation is different but thought I'd let you in on how the SOW feels. I believe that MM needs to decide on his own about his D and I really want to stay out of that part. If I get involved than it really could back fire. There are such strong feelings between us and we have kissed and expressed our feelings. I just can't control these feelings but I feel the best thing for me to do is get out of his life until he decides what is game plan is in his M. What really is helping me is MM being very open with me and letting me know where he is at on his feelings about leaving his M.

I guess the reason I'm telling you this is that I don't know how much you've down w/ OM but honest, open communication is the key and try to compartimentalize your homefront situation w/ the feelings you have w/ OM. Not sure if this is helping but I do bad want MM to leave his M but I know that it is up to him and I have no control over this but I also AM single and able to be with anyone but he is making the standards of a man very VERY high. Hugs and hang in there. Everything will work out- just have faith and believe that you will make the right decision