I need to grow a pair
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| Thu, 12-03-2009 - 11:24am |
I am married with two small children. My marriage has been dead for several years. We've been married for 11 and together for 14 years. He's a great guy, but the spark could not be more dead if he were a corpse. I was completely not looking for an affair, but every night I was wishing for my own death, for DH's death, for some way to get out of my life. I accidentally ran into a HS BF about 7 months ago and we've been hot and heavy ever since. He is divorced with small children of his own. I'm pretty sure that DH has found his own AP.
What I struggle with is how to leave DH and put my kids through a divorce? My kids did nothing to deserve their world being ripped apart.
AP says I cannot go back to wishing for my own death. Wants to marry me, yada yada yada. I'm definitely in love with AP. I also struggle with the knowledge that 10-15 years down the road with AP, I'll likely be in the same boat of wanting something new/different.
Thoughts, advice, anything on how to grow a pair and stand up for what I want?

About 12 years ago I was in the same situation.
Sounds like you're still married and still hating it. Hugs, I'm so sorry.
Ending the marriage definitely has to be for my own benefit and not for a man. Just struggling with hurting my kids.