I need strength

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Registered: 03-10-2004
I need strength
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Thu, 04-29-2004 - 4:14pm
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Edited 10/19/2004 1:53 pm ET ET by whatnow04
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Registered: 09-09-2003
In reply to: whatnow04
Thu, 04-29-2004 - 4:24pm
Hi there, well I have to admit I have been posting today. But generally speaking, I don't go on the computer nights or weekends at all now. Its only during the workdays that I am on a computer all day anyways, but I am trying not to obsess over MM and just know that if I don't see him again, so be it. Once I'm home in the evenings and weekends, I don't think about him hardly as much as I used to!!

Like you, I should really be concentrating on H. If only things there would improve a little, I would not be so tempted by MM I think.

Anyways, you hang in there. I also did not hear from MM for over 2 weeks now. When he does that and gets in touch again, all he ever says is "sorry, I was busy".

Well, someday I hope I have enough self-respect to just tell him "well guess what, I'm too busy for you now". Take care,

Dusty
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Registered: 03-04-2004
In reply to: whatnow04
Thu, 04-29-2004 - 5:53pm
More than ever I am realizing you have to do what's best for you. And it sounds like you need some time to think things through.

You may be right; time away from this board might help. We go the direction of our focus, and being here might cause a focus on the MM you don't want/need.

I'll miss you if you go; I know you say you haven't posted all the time but when I saw your thread, I knew instantly who it was... so take that as having made an impression with your words and actions, enough that you'll be missed.

I hope that you find the resolution you want and need; don't just settle for whatever the situation is. If you can fix your M, that's great and no one would be happier for you than me. If not, then maybe the MM has at least allowed you to see things as they really are - both his inability to make you a priority (and thus how undeserving he is of you) and your M's issues.

Good luck. Whatever you decide, I do wish you the clarity to determine what you want and the strength to fight for it. Be good to yourself first.

rain