I promised it wouldn't get emotional.
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I promised it wouldn't get emotional.
| Sun, 07-19-2009 - 12:06am |
So it's been going on with my OM for about 5 weeks now. He's hubby's friend so he spends a lot of weekends here and we just get together after dh passes out drunk (which happens every time). Other times I'd sneak over to his place after his roommate had gone to bed and we'd be together there and then I'd come home. When it started it was agreed that it was purely physical and the few times I've gotten emotional he pulled back. Now he's gone for a week and next weekend will be our last time to be together- if we even get that much- before he leaves for Iraq for the next 9 months or so. I have realized over the past couple weeks that I have fallen hard for this guy. He is everything I never knew I was looking for in my life. Unfortunately, a bad relationship in the past broke him so much that he has this wall built up, so he pushes away anytime someone gets too close, which is what I feel he is doing to me now. I know I broke my word by falling for him but I really couldn't help that.
To make matters worse, there's a chance I may be pregnant and he made it perfectly clear he never wants kids but I am 100% opposed to abortion. My husband had a vasectomy 6 years ago, so if I am, it's all going to blow up in my face very soon. He doesn't know yet about the possible pregnancy, and I won't tell him until I am positive, no need to freak him out unnecessarily. I have promised him that if it were uncovered that I had an A, that I would protect his identity because it could cost him his entire career if we were discovered.
I just don't know what to do... I still love my H but the feelings I have for OM are getting so overwhelming I don't know how to regain control!! I miss him so much when he's gone...
To make matters worse, there's a chance I may be pregnant and he made it perfectly clear he never wants kids but I am 100% opposed to abortion. My husband had a vasectomy 6 years ago, so if I am, it's all going to blow up in my face very soon. He doesn't know yet about the possible pregnancy, and I won't tell him until I am positive, no need to freak him out unnecessarily. I have promised him that if it were uncovered that I had an A, that I would protect his identity because it could cost him his entire career if we were discovered.
I just don't know what to do... I still love my H but the feelings I have for OM are getting so overwhelming I don't know how to regain control!! I miss him so much when he's gone...

Let me see if I understand....you've been having unprotected sex with a friend of your husband's.