I really did it now...

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Registered: 04-20-2003
I really did it now...
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Fri, 11-21-2003 - 10:00am
What the hell is wrong with me? MM called me this morning, I asked him how his evening was, he said great, talked about the weekend and I guess he has some big plans Saturday night... so after we hung up, I started feeling really insecure and sent him an email saying that it seems like he has no time for me in his life, and he's just going on with his own life, and I'm feeling left out.

god, I should have kept those thoughts to myself because he got really pissed and said "where the hell did that come from" and talked about how he calls me every day- morning, after work, etc. and tries to see me every chance he can get.. and he said that was so unfair of me to say.

well, he's right- but I can't help but feel insecure like that sometimes. so I just emailed him back and told him to forget it- I should have kept that to myself. I haven't heard from him since.

I need to realize that, no matter how deeply our feelings are involved and how much we love each other, it will never be anything more than an EMA. it's something EXTRA. that's all. how can I expect him not to live his own life? I think if he dedicated every waking second of his life to me, I would get sick of it fast!!!!

just had to rant... get my thoughts out there... what do you girls think, any words of wisdom? I'm not going to email or call him... just going to lay low.

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Registered: 03-26-2003
Mon, 11-24-2003 - 9:34am
hi happy. welcome to the board!

i agree with liberal, don't go into this party/social occasion with too many expectations (easier said than done, huh!) and then be disappointed. think of this event as an opportunity to spend time with MM, that you two can just be together as good friends, relax and let the conversation/fun flow. unfortunately, you'll have to follow MM's lead on this one since he's stressed and pulling back from the EMA.

just let him know you'll be there and hope to have a good time with good friends (meaning him, of course!).

good luck,

gurl

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