I survived..barely

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-08-2010
I survived..barely
2
Sat, 03-10-2012 - 1:35pm
Well yesterday was the day I had been dreading since I made the call to the police and it was confirmed that xap had over dosed..I said my final goodbye to him in a public forum where I could grieve but not whisper a word of how I felt. It was a beautiful service and there were so many people that I had not seen in years so it was nice. His ex wife or what ever she was made a scene and it took all the strength and self control I have (and I have a lot) not to knock her teeth out. She did everything she could to annoy everyone there. I am on my way back home now and did stop this morning at the grave to say a private good bye. I know that it will hurt for a long time because despite all we went through, I did love him and a piece of my heart he still holds.
iVillage Member
Registered: 10-03-2011
Sun, 03-11-2012 - 3:55pm

Daisygirl, you seem to be doing so well through all of this. This post brought tears to my eyes. I can't imagine how it must feel for you to lose someone you loved in this way. You seem like a beautiful person, and have handled everything with grace. Big hugs and peace to you.

iVillage Member
Registered: 10-08-2010
Mon, 03-12-2012 - 11:30am

Thank you...I am trying to hold it together.