I think it's finally over

iVillage Member
Registered: 04-26-2003
I think it's finally over
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Mon, 10-20-2003 - 9:28pm
Since I have been in my EMA, I have told my mm from the beginning..if you love your w at all, you need to try to work things out. They have a 10 year old and a 2 year old. Well, I think I said it so much, my mm is now going to do that. We have been in this EMA for 10 months. In the beginning, I was also married...still am, but have filed for D. I can't believe that it is really over. We have said we will still be friends, and there will be times that he won't be able to avoid me, but is it possible to be friends? I think that he will be ok with it for a little bit, but then the second he has a fight with his w, he'll be looking for me..I just know it. I have never felt for anyone the way I feel for him. It has been a horrible week just thinking about not seeing him or being with him. The sad thing is that I told him from the beginning this was going to happen, but, we kept it up. Now I am broken hearted and alone. Maybe that is just what I need. To top things off, I had to post pone my D because of medical issues and insurance. Hopefully everything will turn out ok with my test, so I can finally get my D. Bad week this week!
iVillage Member
Registered: 09-16-2003
Tue, 10-21-2003 - 7:04am
Hugs to you. Coming to terms with a relationship ending is never easy and you have two relationships that are ending. Its indeed a heavy burden to bear emotionally. D isn't easy by itself - all the logistics of insurances to pay for,bills to pay off, house/property that need to be disposed off come along with the emotional ending of your marriage. Its a huge adjustment to a new life by itself. I am sorry about your relationship with the MM ending. We all are here for you if you need a place to vent/cry you problems out. Take care and be well.....