I think its over.....
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| Tue, 01-20-2009 - 11:16pm |
I think I broke things off with AP today. We have been friends for years, and that friendship turned into a PA a few years ago....we are both M. Our relationship was LD and we actually saw one another very infrequently. We did speak often though online and/or over the phone. this past year though I found him to be more distant, busier, the contact less an less frequent and it was always ME initiating contact. I'm just tired. He's not a bad person, has always been good to me....straightforward, caring, no games...but I just can't do this anymore. I'm not sure if I'm the one that evolved..but I just feel differently about things. I love him dearly. Yesterday we had a short conversation in whiche he ended with "you won't see me on here for two weeks" and that was it. No explanation, no goodbye...hell if you think i'm sitting around for two weeks waiting. At that moment I kind of just snapped...being in an A has brought me ALOT of happiness..confidence..self esteem, etc....but now it is just draining me of energy. So I am walking away from the love of my life.....Since i cant call him (he has no privacy at his current work location, I feel uncomfortable calling him) I left him some IM's (our usual way of communicating) and i made it clear that i was unhappy being brushed off...I also brought up a comment he made a year about about not having any obligation or nto wanting to feel obligated to have to contact me, etc. whatever, it doens't matter. In my mind I'm not doing this any more and although I feel tremendous sadness which I know has not hit me full force yet I feel free. I am NOT going on the EAS board so i could talk about how he wronged me, how the A ruined my life, and count days of NC. AP made me happy and I will always have a special place in my heart for him.
has anyone here been through the same and do I have to leave this board now? LOL

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Hi Scu,
I'm sorry to hear about your situation.
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
sorry to hear this...we are going through something similar....except ap didn't want to end it..nor did he want LC, i don't think, he was still texting me everyday and calling...up until..well i got disappointed once again with not being able to see him, after he created the disappointment (by offerring his time, unsolicted) by not communicating with me....he didn't know what to do so said some ole ..well never mind
i know how it feels anyway...i hope you feel better...it's been a week and 4 days..i still haven't heard from him and he hasn't called even to see how i'm doing...
i still got a knot in my gut...i say that to say it's going to be hard..but you can do it or make it
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
"be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"---Dr. Seuss
(((((SCU)))))
Hi honey - just wanted to give you hugs and tell you how proud I am of you for taking a stand and deciding that you deserve better.
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