I think things are winding down
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| Fri, 05-14-2004 - 1:04pm |
I guess I'll start at the beginning. I met OMM in December 2002. We commuted on the bus line. I've seen him once or twice but never acknowledge him, not sure he wanted to acknowledge me. I just lost about 60 pounds. So I did look different. The day we met I was wearing jeans, not my usual office attire, and he made a comment that I looked comfortable. I told him that my office was in the process of moving. We chatted and I thought, what I nice guy. Over the next two weeks, being the holidays and all, we really did not see each other much. I mid January our schedules seemed to coincide. We were taking the same bus in to work and the same home. We started talking alot and I really enjoyed his company. Later in January, he said something to me that totally caught me off guard. He said he though he was falling in love with me. We never kissed or anything. I did not know what to say. I told him I married and cannot do this, but you know I'm here so I did. In early February we became initimate. I love spending time with him he really makes me laugh. He's caring, but he has a family, three kids. Anyway we've continued this for a while now. I know I love him and I know he loves me.
In early April, I found out I was pregnant. I know it was his. I made the decision to terminate even before I told him I was preganant. I terminated two weeks ago. Since then things have definitely changed. He does not call me as much. We had a little tiff the other day and he said after what happened any other guy would be gone. It really hurt me that he said that, am I supposed to be kissing his feet that we still talk/see each other.
I think on the way home today I'm going to talk to him and let him know how I feel. I guess it hurt because I do love him and don't want things to change, but maybe it's the right thing...:o(
