i want to THANK those of you

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Registered: 10-16-2003
i want to THANK those of you
Fri, 10-17-2003 - 4:52pm
who got me to face my anger & my unrealistic expectations.everything is fine.om & i just had such an easy conversation & he said "i like this getting along stuff"...i said i was going to try hard to keep my anger in check.he was concerned that this meant i was faking how i was feeling now which i assured him i am not.that what is happening between us is supposed to be fun...as someone here pointed out to me & is so easy to forget.he backtracked to something i had said the last time we met...which was "you are not allowed to cheat on me...you can do what you want w/ your fiance,but don't you ever cheat on me"i said absolutely,doesn't he feel the same way about me?he said yes.i (for the 1st time) told him that i can accept that fiancee is the love of his life(barf...)& that he's going to marry her & spend his life w/ her(groan)& i can put what he does w/ her out of my mind...but he's not permitted to stray.i told him...you may be someone else's husband but you're MY boyfriend.he loved it.i feel good & i cannot wait to see him tomorrow.i just hope that after we meet i can put him out of my mind for as long as i need to,feel secure that i'm in his heart,& go about my life.harder than it sounds.i wonder if we make them as insecure & flustered & distracted as they make us?