if exists, is S with H awkward for you?
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if exists, is S with H awkward for you?
| Fri, 10-24-2008 - 11:00am |
Last night H and I had sex for the first time in over 3 months. All that time I have been having sex with AP. So when H initiated it last night, I went along, but it was terriby awkward for me. He doesn't kiss me the way AP does (and I LOVE AP's kisses) and I was basically turned off after that. It was so bad and I just wanted to get it over with. I didn't realize how strange it would be (stupid me I guess) and it kind of scared me. Suppose AP and I never really get together (which seems the likely case after reading all the posts) and now I am not sexually interested in my H. Maybe this is weird but I almost felt bad like I was cheating on AP! And it just made me long for him even more. Ah what a mess! Anyone else ever feel this way? How do you deal with it?

I definitely understand what you are going through.