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If you had it to do again...
| Tue, 02-03-2004 - 4:35pm |
Well this is the weekend.. and I'm new to this discussion board and new to the affair business... we're both married but wildly attracted to one another. We both want to keep our marriages intact; my husband is disabled and we are unable to have sex very often, and I'm more mother than wife -- he has a young child and can't see his way to breaking up his 2nd marriage though unhappy. We talk for hours most every day, I think of him all the time, he stirs me in a way I've never ever felt before. This weekend we are spending our first night together. We've had phone sex, but never the real thing. I've never even kissed him. I'm so anxious and scared, and so is he. What if the reality doesn't match the fantasy? I can't help but wonder how I'm going to feel by the end of the weekend... I'm already mourning not being with him. We'll be able to see each other every few months, and talk most every day, but I think of him constantly already. Will being together make that better or worse? If you had it to do again, would you? I don't know if I'm on the brink of a huge disaster, or the best time of my life. I just know that I've never felt quite so alive in my life. BYW... I'm not a kid -- I'm in my late 40's and have never had an affair before, never even contemplated one. Am I crazy?

Hey saturdaysister and welcome aboard,
Would I do it all again... hell
Sweet
Co-Community Leader My
He has taught me so much about myself that I had forgotten was there
I am a stronger person and alot happier now than I was before he came into my life
We have discussed the lack of guilt that we both feel, I thought I would feel guilty but none at all!!!
SB
Seeburg
hi saturdaysister and welcome to the board!
CL-Gurlfriend50
Co-CL of My Affair Support Board
hey saturday and oh my, i can only imagine what that sexy, lacy something will do for your MM and you too!!
CL-Gurlfriend50
Co-CL of My Affair Support Board
I do wish you luck if you choose to proceed.... the board and it's members are always here for you to talk to and they are a wise, generous, kind, sympathetic, funny bunch! Good luck!
jpcstpaul
I was with my MM for 2 years before we did the deed.