I'm back, we're back, it's still messy

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Registered: 07-03-2003
I'm back, we're back, it's still messy
Mon, 08-25-2003 - 7:38pm
Well, I left the board because I swore it was over. MM had to confess to his priest and for a while there, he was Mr. Catholic Husband. However, it didn't take very long before he broke down and after a jealousy incident (on my part - I was jealous of him and another woman), he attempted to make me feel better (i.e. - don't you get it, I'm hot for you, not her) by touching me for the first time in a couple of weeks. So, I tried but I could not resist.

And since then, although we've both talked about not getting together anymore, one of us will say something to the other that gets the other going, and before we know it, we're making arrangements to meet somewhere. We've only gotten together twice since the "breakdown" but now he's invited me to go with him for a night away (he has to make a trip anyway, but suggested that I go too).

I am dying because I want to, but a) my therapist has suggested that I think seriously about the decisions I'm making because she thinks we're headed for a crash b) I am afraid of getting caught, too, by H although I have a great alibi (work trip).

Both MM and I know that we're addicted to one another. The problem is, I want to bring it up to let him know that I took off from work and planted the seed in H's head, but he's had some really stressful days. I mentioned it at the end of the day, and he said "today is not the day to ask me about Thursday".

Stressing. I don't know if I'll go, if his mood doesn't cheer up, I'll never be able to broach the subject. However, usually a little sexy suggestion from me will get him thinking about it and perhaps his mood will turn around. Aagh. Thanks for listening, I need this place to vent or I will go nuts.