I’m depressed today

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Registered: 05-06-2004
I’m depressed today
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Wed, 05-19-2004 - 4:50pm
I’m depressed today. I only saw OM twice last week, and on one occasion this week. Before last week, he spent a few hours at my house every morning after my H left for work. I miss OM terribly on the days that I don’t see him. I crave his touch. Unlike my H, he’s able to satisfy my needs as a woman.

OM told me that his mother questioned him about the nature of our relationship. I barely know the woman – we’re both in the local Garden Club, but we’ve never talked. OM told her that we are just friends. OM’s mother told him that I am a “b**ch” and that he should stay away from me. LOL.

My H’s renewed interest in me continues. He now wants me almost every night – before my A began, I was lucky if it was once a month. It’s such a chore. He used to satisfy me, but after having experienced OM, I doubt that he ever will again. When H tries to initiate something, I make up an excuse to refuse him. If that doesn’t work, I submit, then I moan a lot and wiggle my hips a few times, all the while desperately hoping that he finishes quickly. When it’s finally over, I gush about how great his performance was and how much I enjoyed it. H thinks that he’s a big stud, but in reality, he’s pathetic. I don’t understand how he has been successful in business – he’s a total idiot.

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Registered: 04-21-2004
Wed, 05-19-2004 - 5:00pm
Have you ever considered leaving your H to be with the OM full time? Sounds like you aren't happy in your marriage and happiest when you are with your OM.

A lot of the feelings you have expressed are so familiar to me!

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Registered: 05-06-2004
Wed, 05-19-2004 - 5:58pm
I would leave my H for OM in a second, if I could. The problem is economic. My H has been very successful in business and has given me a very nice life, in the material sense. As much as I love OM, he will never be able to compete with my H in that area.