I'm feeling a little scared.......
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| Wed, 09-24-2003 - 9:34am |
MM, has been seperated from his W before. This is nothing new. What scares me is not knowing what the future holds for us. The last time MM was seperated from his W, he turned into a real Playboy. I found out he was seeing myself and at least 2 other women, and still trying to get back with his W. During the time he was seperated from his W, our R hit rock bottom. That's when our R took a turn for the worst. It hasn't been the same since. I don't trust him. I wonder is he going to turn into that Playboy again. As long as he is home with his W, he is a differet person. But, once he leaves her, he turns into someone else. During that time MM, lied to me constantly, trying to cover his behavior with the 2 other women, and still seeing his W "everyday".
I was watching Oprah yesterday, and the topic of discussion was cheating. There was something said that really made me think. Getting through the betrayal (which is what I felt when I found out MM was seeing those other women) takes time to get over. You get over it when you do. But, as long as MM is still lying to me, I will never trust him. And, MM is still lying to me.
I'm starting to ramble, because I can't get my thoughts together. I'm trying to get this out before I get kicked off the network.
Thanks for letting me ramble.
SL
