I'm geting out.....
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| Wed, 01-14-2004 - 1:48pm |
There were certain things I told MM about things that happened with certain people at the x-mas party. Well last Friday these two people that were involved in these events were at different times talking small talk w/ MM. He made a point to mention my name in the conversation. It was like he wanted these two people to know that we talk on a personal level often. He didn't betray my confiding in him but he found a way to let these two people know that we talk.
I was furious to say the least. I didn't speak to him the rest of the day. I didn't even turn on my phone this whole weekend. When we go back to work Monday I turned it on but didn't answer his calls and Tuesday I kept my door shut. He didn't even knock and barged in and asked me where someone was and did I have the papers they were leaving for him ?! Well duh, no I don't. Anyway he asked if I was alright and I said not really; I will call you later. I did and ended it with him.
Rewind back to Sunday and my home life and the reasons to end this based on that. H is acting so crazy. Every other minute accusing me of an A. Had he not been doing this before MM and I started talking more seriously I would have thought he really did know something. However he has always asked me if I have a boyfriend since we got married 6 years ago. So that's nothing new really. I just feel like my M is about to take a turn one way or the other soon and I don't want any extra baggage when it does. If we split up it will be hard enough trying to deal with that and three daughters and the life they are used to. If we don't split up I don't want to feel any guilt about my efforts to salvage my M. And if I still had MM I know I wouldn't be making an honest effort.
Well that's about all. I have really valued all of your comments and opinions and I think you all are a great group of people.
~Blue
Edited 1/14/2004 1:51:08 PM ET by bluecar2002

great good luck to you! stay in touch so we know you're okay.
gurl